i don't know
I don't know...
[*]If I feel bad for letting the coaches down. Or the team. I doubt the team even fucking cares, they don't really care if we win or not, so why would they? Sometimes I think about just standing there and letting balls go in. There's always one person though that I can see is trying so hard and so I try to do my best for them. Too bad field hockey sucks this year.
[*]If what I want even applies to him. Do things take over your mind because they are put there most of the time anyways and figure they might as well stay? If not, then why does time apart clear it? I don't even know if I'd want to take the time apart to tell. That might just make it more pathetic.
[*]Why I'm unhappy. I have no right to be sad, but I figure everyone has the right to not be happy. These mood patterns don't seem to follow events or cycles, they just BOOM, change. And there's nothing I can do about it, so far at least.
See what you make of that I guess.
[*]If I feel bad for letting the coaches down. Or the team. I doubt the team even fucking cares, they don't really care if we win or not, so why would they? Sometimes I think about just standing there and letting balls go in. There's always one person though that I can see is trying so hard and so I try to do my best for them. Too bad field hockey sucks this year.
[*]If what I want even applies to him. Do things take over your mind because they are put there most of the time anyways and figure they might as well stay? If not, then why does time apart clear it? I don't even know if I'd want to take the time apart to tell. That might just make it more pathetic.
[*]Why I'm unhappy. I have no right to be sad, but I figure everyone has the right to not be happy. These mood patterns don't seem to follow events or cycles, they just BOOM, change. And there's nothing I can do about it, so far at least.
See what you make of that I guess.