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I need a mantra.
I need some word or phrase that I can cling to at any time of interaction with others, even with my friends, in that moment when I get hit with a wave of vertigo; when the fear of saying or doing the wrong thing, the fear of not being in control of my part of the encounter, the fear that always seems--whether it actually does or not--to guarantee the emergence of the wrong utterance or action that I wish with all my heart to avoid begins to rise within me.
I need a mantra as a weapon that may stop short of killing that powerful, paralyzing fear, but one which will at least help me more effectively beat that fear back down to the confined place where it belongs and free me to tap into the well of charisma from which I know I am allowed to draw my confidence.
Perhaps I should use "labia majora".
I need some word or phrase that I can cling to at any time of interaction with others, even with my friends, in that moment when I get hit with a wave of vertigo; when the fear of saying or doing the wrong thing, the fear of not being in control of my part of the encounter, the fear that always seems--whether it actually does or not--to guarantee the emergence of the wrong utterance or action that I wish with all my heart to avoid begins to rise within me.
I need a mantra as a weapon that may stop short of killing that powerful, paralyzing fear, but one which will at least help me more effectively beat that fear back down to the confined place where it belongs and free me to tap into the well of charisma from which I know I am allowed to draw my confidence.
Perhaps I should use "labia majora".