...idk...
I have changed somehow. I don't know how. My mind has been foggy the last few days, I am uncertain of what I want and how to get there. This is odd for me. I had ideas of what I wanted...some where proven false...others I am unsure of...and others I don't know if I can wait for. One of my biggest fears in my life is getting stuck in something I don't want. My second fear is never getting what I want because I keep passing up in search of better. At some point I need to settle down, and the scary thing is...I feel this now. Yet I am not at a place in my life to settle down. So my life is at odds with me. I don't want to be on the move right now, but I can't settle...what am I to do? I guess I will just work on things I want that I can work on, and let the rest figure itself out. However, its hard to have a complete life when parts are missing. A beautiful car is nothing without an engine inside. Huh...I don't know. I know it will all work out in the end, it always does for me. The thing is...I don't know how it will workout, and that kind of confuses me. Can't really say I am scared by it, since I am really scared of nothing...kind of cool being a Sag.