Sigh, running the race.
So I am good at running the race. I have already started a few more. I don't really feel interested in the race, I don't even care about the prize at the end. I have gotten a lot of prizes already. I just have nothing better to do right now. Someday I would like to walk, instead of always running. However, every time I try to walk, I am made to crawl. I refuse to crawl, I will not live my life like that. It is hard to tell what people want, especially when they don't know what they want.
One of the craziest things I have come to understand as true, through discussion and having Multiple experiences with it is run don't walk. When people find out your a runner, and your good at it, they try and use it. People who say they want to walk, but really want to run try to use you. For if you get them to run, its not their fault, everyone knows you're a good runner, and they just got caught up in the race. Getting someone to run is different then dragging someone, don't get me wrong. They just want to "get caught up" in the run, so they can still claim to be a walking. I mean, if they can say "he's different, what was I suppose to do, it doesn't count." then they are off the hook.
Sigh, will I always be running, and expected to run. I don't know. Maybe instead of trying to walk, I need to find a way to make a run feel like a walk. Just stop running you say...sigh, I can not sit still. I am like a shark, I must keep moving or I will die. I will just keep collecting my prizes. At first they meant something, now they just pile up. The hope is someday I will get to take all I have learned from my many races, and apply them where they count.
Note, I love abstract thinking. That is why I always write in metaphors.