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[slowlyenveloped]

bah, i'm having such mixed feelings about coming home. really, i do not want to leave, 真的。 but now that i've decided i'm going to, i almost just want to get up and take a plane home right now. they're very weird dual feelings that somehow coexist in a really awkward and uncomfortable (and, well, obnoxious) way. i'm starting to overthink about it all now though so i guess i just need to live through it now.

i'm gonna miss speaking chinese.