(no subject)
The two most important things I could ever have learned about myself are: no matter how much I would like to have a nervous breakdown and be mercifully shipped off to a room somewhere and fed sedatives for the rest of my life, I will always stay upright, lucid, and reasonably competent whether I like it or not because there is a part of me that does not know how to fail and is never going to fail, no matter what form of self-abuse I partake in in hopes of stomping that part of me to pieces. In the same vein, in spite of my tendency towards self-neglect and self-abuse, I am the one who has kept myself alive and no body and no thing has done it or will do it for me, therefore although it would be complete bullshit if I went around smiling bravely through tears and proclaiming that I'm so much stronger now than I used to be and I'll never let anything defeat me again, I must be doing something right.
The third most important thing is: I can either cry over the paradoxical nature of these things or I can get on with my life.
* I got rid of the pictures only because I want to be able to keep this public without caring who sees.