Wow...I mean WOW

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Oh my god, I had a great time tonight. I went down Amber's house and hung out with her and Jimmy. Well when I first got there her girlfriend was there but at like 8:50 I took her home and then Jimmy, Amber and me went back to Amber's house. We chilled in her room together and then Jimmy just walked away. So that gave Amber and I some time to talk. I'm going to be with Amber again tomorrow. We hung out on Wednesday, tonight and tomorrow. I think this is as much time that I've ever spent with Amber. Even though we weren't alone and she's in love and I am to, I enjoy being there with her. I feel safe with Amber. I could look into her eyes for a million hours and she would let me do it. It feels good to feel loved. I also talked to Amanda Cherie. I'm happy to say life is ok for her for the most part. I don't like hearing about either friends or people that I've dated have a rough time, it just hurts me. I guess that's why I'm hanging around Amber. God knows I've liked her for 3 years now but I would much rather have her as a friend then nothing at all. Am I going to break up with Amanda for her? No, Amber and me still have a lot to accomplish together. Only time can give us a heads up. I really hope that we stay close though. I love being able to call her and talk to her and not have to worry about her being in trouble or doing something stupid. Oh well, my life is starting to pick back up again. Thanks Amber, Amanda Cherie and Jimmy. I love all of you guys because you were there for me when I needed you and you know I'll do the same for you.

Merry Christmas everyone and have a Happy New Year...stay out of trouble!

Jimmy Baldwin I love you man and I wish you could be alive for this holiday. I still haven't officially realized that you're gone but maybe someday I'll accept that but not anytime soon. I love you man and rest in peace and never forget I'll always miss you.