Hold up
Man I was talking to my ex Ryan and I thought my schedule was on track but it wasn't. I thought summer training for R.O.T.C. was starting on the 13th but it starts tomorrow. Hold up, I didn't know it was the 9th through the 13th. Well I'm glad it starts tomorrow or else I wouldn't be going to Rhode Island. Well I'm still not sure because Amanda is at her mom's and she talks to me for maybe 5 minutes. I told her when she had time to call me that I'm not going to call her, I have a life. Actually yesterday was a great day. I ran into three of my ex girlfriends. Katrin~my first ever girlfriend came up behind me at the mall and touched my hair. Then she was stalking me because every store I was in, she was in but I didn't talk to her until the last store. So at hot topic while talking to Amanda, Katrin starts rubbing my neck. Well I lost Amanda due to my service and I got caught up with talking to Kat and Kat started talking about us going back out. I was like wow, I loved you and you felt the same but yet we broke up. She turned to tears in the store because I told her I had moved on and she pushed "we could have been together for 3 years by now baby and I love you and I need you to breathe" in my face. What is it with people who tell me their feelings after I find someone else. But I did tell Amanda that I would so date Katrin again because I still love her but not the way she loves me but she really does need me. I saved her life when drug dealers hunted her down, I gave her money to pay her dues like 100 times because she was so poor. I bought her lunch because she couldn't afford that either and sometimes I even had to hand feed her like a little baby. Katrin was mean to me and that is the reason why I broke up with her. Then throughout my freshman year she still held my hand and called me 24/7 and I never told her to stop until I starting dating her friend Julie. Julie however, was one of those suicidal people and she cut her wrist one day in 5th period and came to my lunch at the start of 6th period and cried into my arms and I walked her to class and stood there while she told her teacher what happened and then I walked her to the nurse's office. Then out of no where she became very violent but not towards me but she was sent to live with her grandparents and we had to break up because I cared for her a lot but I didn't love her. I can't stand people who I care about cry and be upset. It rips my soul in 20 frickin directions. So now I have to be up at 7 and be at school until 12, then I have to go to my mom's work until 3:30 and then I have to go to my new job. Thank god Amanda and I aren't always talking anymore because then I would have to ditch her or the school and I need to be there for both of them. But since she rarely calls me because of her mom, I have time to do whatever I need to do. Anyways I'm out like a fat kid in dodgeball, Amanda Lynn Monteiro is in trouble lol.