happy day off...
So instead of going to Chicago with John today or going out to a Memorial Day BBQ, I am spending the day home-and-bed bound. I woke up and decided I'd take a nice, relaxing bath. I cleared my mind, put on my headphones and started to feel weak and dizzy. Too hot? I washed my face. Still too hot? Put on the fan. Still? Opened the door a little bit. Each time I stood up to do something, I'd get a really bad headrush and fall over into the wall. I guess I was pretty close to having a stroke or something because there was very little oxygen in the shower area. After 10 minutes, I couldn't take it anymore. I got out and went into the computer room where my mom was and collapsed. I started shaking like usual. My mom put a cold washcloth on my head and said my skin felt like it was boiling. My face was sweating and I couldn't comprehend anything. So after all day of me trying to get back from that, my parents tell me we're going in for blood tests asap. They think I have hypoglycemia, which usually leads to diabetes, which is bad news because I hate needles! I could never get used to doing insulin checks! I have to take better care of myself. At first my mom thought I was bulimic, I guess. Right. But I have been eating less and less lately and when I do eat, it's fast food or just small snacks. Sweet, my body's breaking down on me. So now, I'm on a strict diet and the last week of high school will be full of doctor's appointments and tests. Trying to find time between appointments for prom for blood tests...
Edit: At dinner, we were talking about measures we have to take with this. I might miss senior day because that is the only time I can fit in tests and stuff, which made me upset because I'd like to spend that time with friends at the beach, not getting blood taken. She told me that a this could mean more than a day at the beach with friends. This could mean my future, my life, if not dealt with immediately. She said "What would have happened if I wasn't there to cool you down and take care of you?" I'd like to think I would have risen up and done it all myself, but I'm not too sure. And that really shook me up.
This really scares me. :(
Edit: At dinner, we were talking about measures we have to take with this. I might miss senior day because that is the only time I can fit in tests and stuff, which made me upset because I'd like to spend that time with friends at the beach, not getting blood taken. She told me that a this could mean more than a day at the beach with friends. This could mean my future, my life, if not dealt with immediately. She said "What would have happened if I wasn't there to cool you down and take care of you?" I'd like to think I would have risen up and done it all myself, but I'm not too sure. And that really shook me up.
This really scares me. :(