just keep swimming...
i don't know how much more i can take of this. im sick of getting yelled at for everything, ignored, or treated like another life form. i did nothing wrong, but to my parents, i've committed the most deadliest of sins. asking for my mom's credit card to send in act results to uic, she and my dad yell at me from downstairs telling me that in no way will i go there and if i do because its the only place i'm accepted, i will live at home, and continue to lecture me on my choices. i am an intelligent person, i think things over and make choices that i think are best for me. they don't understand that i am fully capable of dealing with things and it hurts. maybe it just seems bad and like i can't deal with them right now, sure things will get better, but they will also get worse. note, it was my parents who called everyone else's parents over the sheboygan trip and got everyone in trouble because they thought it was gonna be some wild orgy. they're irrational and i can't live with this for too much longer. shit, my brother moved in with his girlfriend when he was 20 for the same reasons. i don't blame him.
so now i have one of the biggest decisions laying in front of me. do i suck it up and obey their rules for the next few years, then celebrate that i've made it through and go on my way to making my own living? or do i start now? i know plenty of people young and old that went on their own at 18 and are doing fine. the college decision is big enough for people. the choice of college a or college b could change someone's life. and now i have another decision to make. do i rely on myself and make a living, while going to college, and is that even a realistic idea?
i don't know. but i have to find some kind of incentive to get through life here.
[ps- thanks to everyone who's talked to me about all thats going on lately. i appreciate it. it's really helped.]
so now i have one of the biggest decisions laying in front of me. do i suck it up and obey their rules for the next few years, then celebrate that i've made it through and go on my way to making my own living? or do i start now? i know plenty of people young and old that went on their own at 18 and are doing fine. the college decision is big enough for people. the choice of college a or college b could change someone's life. and now i have another decision to make. do i rely on myself and make a living, while going to college, and is that even a realistic idea?
i don't know. but i have to find some kind of incentive to get through life here.
[ps- thanks to everyone who's talked to me about all thats going on lately. i appreciate it. it's really helped.]