Me.

[slowbrownie]

well ive just started to calm down and realize and take focus to alot of things i thought i was missing.. i dont wanna screw up, and my time is getting to close to the making of myself for the rest of my life! i just wanna graduate good, and stay with ezequias.. and keep my good friends.. i just wish that he would feel the same way.. i wanna be able to say no or express my feelings but lately i havent had the courage, i feel like ive spent to much time, but im just trying to satisfy him! i dont wanna get angry, and im def not angry.. i just wish he would do for me, as i am for him.. i dont want him involved in the bad things.. but i guess ill never say no.. i feel as if i have no power, and he took it all from me, not trying to bring him down, or make him look mean, or make me look weak.. but i still feel as if its not fair.. 100% not.. i like how he tells me no, he doesnt want me too! it gives me motivation.. but the fact he cant give it up.. KILLS ME.. i hate it more than life.. and even though its not chased.. i hate it... o well i guess.. :-[

I WANNA CLEAN MYSELF UP!