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i went to register for a defensive driving course today at the watauga continuing education center/caldwell community college. the whole college is just one tiny and sad little building with three cars parked out front. the receptionist seemed like she didn't want to deal with me and everything looked like it was from the 70s.
my touchpad doesn't work anymore. i don't know what to do. i've tried everything. (i spilled hot tea on it.)
tonight i have to do my lab report on THE KINETICS OF A CHEMICAL REACTION (?) and it looks really hard. and my english midterm is tomorrow, and i haven't read half of the stories yet because i'm lazy. and the cute guy who sits next to me in chemistry who asked for my phone number said he's going to call me tomorrow to go over some chem problems together so i should study but i don't want to. i keep thinking today is wednesday.
i'm not going to work over break. i was going to because i really need to for my ticket/defensive driving class/stupid court costs since my tax return won't cover all of that, but i never ever want to step back inside of lowes #208 again and be nice to jerky customers and be annoyed by all of my high school coworkers. i don't like being a robot. i need to find a fun job.
and i really want to drop out of college. i can imagine how relieved i would feel. but 1) i don't know how in the world to talk to my parents about it and 2) i don't want the stigma associated with dropping out of college. it doesn't automatically make me a lazy and awful and unintelligent person, eventhoughmaybeiam.
my head hurts so bad and also my neck (it always gets really bad when i'm really stressed out and feel like crying all the time) and i never go anywhere and i don't even want to make friends here because i don't want to be here at all and aijdiojglsadjgoidsag;d
my touchpad doesn't work anymore. i don't know what to do. i've tried everything. (i spilled hot tea on it.)
tonight i have to do my lab report on THE KINETICS OF A CHEMICAL REACTION (?) and it looks really hard. and my english midterm is tomorrow, and i haven't read half of the stories yet because i'm lazy. and the cute guy who sits next to me in chemistry who asked for my phone number said he's going to call me tomorrow to go over some chem problems together so i should study but i don't want to. i keep thinking today is wednesday.
i'm not going to work over break. i was going to because i really need to for my ticket/defensive driving class/stupid court costs since my tax return won't cover all of that, but i never ever want to step back inside of lowes #208 again and be nice to jerky customers and be annoyed by all of my high school coworkers. i don't like being a robot. i need to find a fun job.
and i really want to drop out of college. i can imagine how relieved i would feel. but 1) i don't know how in the world to talk to my parents about it and 2) i don't want the stigma associated with dropping out of college. it doesn't automatically make me a lazy and awful and unintelligent person, eventhoughmaybeiam.
my head hurts so bad and also my neck (it always gets really bad when i'm really stressed out and feel like crying all the time) and i never go anywhere and i don't even want to make friends here because i don't want to be here at all and aijdiojglsadjgoidsag;d