Long awaited post at last.
Life and here we are, In one week things are about to change alot...
With some of my standard crew leavin for Western in a week things look semidepressing in the near future. But its not like I am never going to see them. I mean we will still talk and the weekend trips will be semi-constant, but damn things will just seem strange.
But what really is iratating is that I have not yet got in line everything I wanted to this summer there are some lose ends in the Jeff becoming a responsible adult catigory. Namely being transportation. I feel like a lil kid getting rides and shit its so damn frusterating. ANDY GET ME THAT FUCKIN TITLE. I want to have my freedom and it is beeing serously thrown off without a car. So embarising to be givin a ride back from the movies with your g/f grandma. Swallowed the lil bit of pride ya had didn't ya Jeff.
While on the g/f topic, I swear the jailbait/she's 15 comments, I FUCKING KNOW THIS SO SHUT THE FUCK UP. Really now getting old. Its sucks that shes back in school going to miss the mondays with Rachael. Come on vehicle hurry up so I can take her out at night.
Morman
So this has been a standerd conversation with my morman.
Hey what up
Hangin out with Mandy and Ben
Want to hang out later
Na with Mandy and Ben
What ya up to
Gettin High
Oh okay well want to kick it later
Na Hangin out with Mandy and Ben
over and over and over
I am not the only one who has thought of this so don't try to single me out.
Religion
Okay ever since I had my conversation with Mia earlier in the summer I have been in a massive doubt of the church in general and along with the events that habbened with a certain figure in the church that everybody thinks is fuckin perfect, well it has kinda thrown me off. I miss the talks with Dave I swear only person who could make me want to believe is just kinda screwin with my veiws. And look my actions this summer not what I said I would do but fuck I admit them and am pretty much shunned by the religiouse people because of it, But I don't fuckin lie about it. Everything works out in the end and things come back to kick you in the ass. If it weren't for that I would be pretty pissed. I still believe in the basic teachings I just can't seem to give up on some of the stuff that has become acustomed to me, it fuckin sucks. Why is it though am I not a christian because I drink on occasion (okay maybe more then that and it fuckin pisses me off how much I do sometimes so I cut back only to start back up a week or so later, fuckin habits suck) I used this argument once and here it is again, If I am breakin docterine by drinking hell if I lived in another contry it wouldn't matter. I don't drink wo make myself happy, I do it more on a social level and well ah fuck defending myself, it pointless. When it comes down to it the basic levels of religion.
Love myself, Check
Love God, Check
Love your Neighbor, Check
So why am I not a good christian because of my habits, okay I can live with that but before you condeme me look at yourself, hell I don't anylize you and tear apart your choices they are mine to mess up. I swear I have an in ability to to get mad at others choices in this regard because even If I disagree with them and think they are kinda fucked I just say its there life if it turns to be a problem and they can't fix it, they can come to me then. I will always be there.
College
College is in a week for myself now and I am still not sure if I am ready to go is to say this is studying for what I want to be, can I make my goal and be happy with it or is this a really stupid idea that I just blew a bunch of money on, fuck I hope I make it.
I fuckin miss Chris and our mayheme we need to find out some way to get together and hang out. Miss that bitch.
I really can't think of anything else I feel relieved right now that I said all this there is some more stuff but that is for my head to sort out. If you can't understand this rant well thats 2 of us, but it made sense when I was typing it out.
With some of my standard crew leavin for Western in a week things look semidepressing in the near future. But its not like I am never going to see them. I mean we will still talk and the weekend trips will be semi-constant, but damn things will just seem strange.
But what really is iratating is that I have not yet got in line everything I wanted to this summer there are some lose ends in the Jeff becoming a responsible adult catigory. Namely being transportation. I feel like a lil kid getting rides and shit its so damn frusterating. ANDY GET ME THAT FUCKIN TITLE. I want to have my freedom and it is beeing serously thrown off without a car. So embarising to be givin a ride back from the movies with your g/f grandma. Swallowed the lil bit of pride ya had didn't ya Jeff.
While on the g/f topic, I swear the jailbait/she's 15 comments, I FUCKING KNOW THIS SO SHUT THE FUCK UP. Really now getting old. Its sucks that shes back in school going to miss the mondays with Rachael. Come on vehicle hurry up so I can take her out at night.
Morman
So this has been a standerd conversation with my morman.
Hey what up
Hangin out with Mandy and Ben
Want to hang out later
Na with Mandy and Ben
What ya up to
Gettin High
Oh okay well want to kick it later
Na Hangin out with Mandy and Ben
over and over and over
I am not the only one who has thought of this so don't try to single me out.
Religion
Okay ever since I had my conversation with Mia earlier in the summer I have been in a massive doubt of the church in general and along with the events that habbened with a certain figure in the church that everybody thinks is fuckin perfect, well it has kinda thrown me off. I miss the talks with Dave I swear only person who could make me want to believe is just kinda screwin with my veiws. And look my actions this summer not what I said I would do but fuck I admit them and am pretty much shunned by the religiouse people because of it, But I don't fuckin lie about it. Everything works out in the end and things come back to kick you in the ass. If it weren't for that I would be pretty pissed. I still believe in the basic teachings I just can't seem to give up on some of the stuff that has become acustomed to me, it fuckin sucks. Why is it though am I not a christian because I drink on occasion (okay maybe more then that and it fuckin pisses me off how much I do sometimes so I cut back only to start back up a week or so later, fuckin habits suck) I used this argument once and here it is again, If I am breakin docterine by drinking hell if I lived in another contry it wouldn't matter. I don't drink wo make myself happy, I do it more on a social level and well ah fuck defending myself, it pointless. When it comes down to it the basic levels of religion.
Love myself, Check
Love God, Check
Love your Neighbor, Check
So why am I not a good christian because of my habits, okay I can live with that but before you condeme me look at yourself, hell I don't anylize you and tear apart your choices they are mine to mess up. I swear I have an in ability to to get mad at others choices in this regard because even If I disagree with them and think they are kinda fucked I just say its there life if it turns to be a problem and they can't fix it, they can come to me then. I will always be there.
College
College is in a week for myself now and I am still not sure if I am ready to go is to say this is studying for what I want to be, can I make my goal and be happy with it or is this a really stupid idea that I just blew a bunch of money on, fuck I hope I make it.
I fuckin miss Chris and our mayheme we need to find out some way to get together and hang out. Miss that bitch.
I really can't think of anything else I feel relieved right now that I said all this there is some more stuff but that is for my head to sort out. If you can't understand this rant well thats 2 of us, but it made sense when I was typing it out.