[Poem] Changed my life
Have you ever met someone who changed your life so completely?
In a way that it will never be the same, in a way so sweetly.
I did only once, and that person was you.
Sometimes it makes me cry, sometimes it’s hard, that’s for sure.
But I love you even though, and I love you anyway.
Love you less than tomorrow and much more than I did yesterday.
Because when it’s dark, it’s you I find by my side.
Telling me you’re here you make my fear subside.
And I see you there, holding my hand when the storm scares.
With a loving heart of someone who cares.
And I see you there, even when I think you’re gone.
I know you’ll be there in the break of the dawn.
And I see you there, even when I have a panic attack.
You’re like a blurry memory in dark thoughts when it’s all black.
But you’re always there, and I know you are.
And I know that even when you’re far.
It may be difficult, yes, I know it is, and I don’t mind.
But there is something more within, something kind.
Even if every rose has its thorn.
In the form of no emoticons, or a not so playful :SCORN:
But behind all the thorns there’s delicate rose
Something that was asleep, but with you arose.
The kindest of feelings named empathy.
Though I’ve always did things to others with sympathy,
I never cared that deeply about how they felt either.
Empathy is more than helping others, it’s going further.
It’s more than not doing to other what you don’t want done to yourself.
More than not doing what’s best for yourself.
It’s actually thinking about the other’s feelings constantly.
Not because you have to, it’s not something out of guilty.
It happens naturally, you simply care about someone.
And when that person does too, you know you’ve won.
Though it’s not a game, you feel happy just the same.
And you know what? I do love you, there’s no other name.
I just wish you would understand - but I know you already do -
That I try to change for you, even when I don’t want to.
But it takes time, and sometimes it seems like I don’t.
Like I’m selfish, and changing is not something I want.
But I am, I’m just going slowly on my own time.
I know I can make this friendship last for a lifetime.
We will make mistakes along the way, true.
But we only need patience to get through.
You are at the top of my list of important people.
I wish that there was a way to make it all simple.
I wish I didn’t have to hurt you every time I have a meltdown.
I wish I could only make you smile, but never frown.
But when the pain feels so real.
When I see that you try so hard to conceal
the feeling you’re not comfortable to share with me.
That is when it gets hard for me to see
you there in shadows of the monsters inside my head.
Then I lose control, I panic and I wish I was dead.
So it wouldn’t hurt so much the idea of being left behind
And you feel forced to always remind
me that you’re still here.
Though I do not see you, your mumbling is all I hear.
Like a sweet old lullaby
telling me that this is not a goodbye.
I wish I was strong enough for the both of us
strong enough to get rid of all the evil that is contagious.
Strong enough not fear, strong enough to make you happy.
But I never do, all my mistakes, only make you feel crappy.
And then I feel like such a failure
when all I wanted was to be your savior.
And it ends up with you coming to my rescue.
Chanting to me that my fears are untrue.
You are my hero in disguise.
And yes you did change my life.
Now that everything is said and done
I wish I was the one to pick up the pieces when you come undone.