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I don't care about your name, so let's skip that, ok?: ok.
Instead, what's the best thing anyone has ever called you?: my friend justin, with the most sincere face, told me that the reason he can't not love me is because every single time he sees me the feeling never fades. for three years, the way i look, and the vibe that i give off, never goes away. i started crying instantly.
How old do you feel?: my age
How old do you look?: my age
How tall is your best friend?: five six or seven
What color hair did your 5th grade teacher have?: blondish gray
What color are your father's eyes?: blue green
Where do you wish you lived?: new yorkk or california
A Bit Deeper Now...
Do you remember your dreams?: sometimes
If so, tell me the one that disturbed you the most: one where i gave donald aids or something, through i needle that i heroin addict used.
How about the one that made you feel really good?: chris caraba from dashboard fingered me in my dream two nights ago?
When you were a child, did you have very vivid nightmares?: i don't know if they were very vivid, i always got the details mixed up.
If so, do you remember them even now?: yeah
Were you ever betrayed by someone you trusted implicitly?: yep
What do you do when you're home alone?: talk to myself, sing really loud, walk around the house in underwear and check myself out, and smoke a lot of cigs.
What do you think about when you are trying to fall asleep at night?: EVERYTHING.
Do you fall asleep easily?: not really. but it's not hard for me either.
Who do you trust the most?: a few people. i guess my mom the most.
Tell Me Your Secrets...
Are there things that you've never told another human being?: no i have a huge mouth.
If so, have you ever even written them down?: yep i write everything down.
Have you ever been deeply hurt by a friend?: yes
If so, have you ever *really* forgiven them?: i try, i'm working on it.
Are you a virgin?: nope
How do you feel about that?: sometimes i wish i could go back to being a virgin, no real pain, and i was as fucking psychotic bitch.
Is there anything that you really regret doing?: not deeply no
How about *not* doing?: yes, but i'm pretty impulsive so most of the time i don't *not* do something.
We're Really Deep Now...
What frightens you the most in the whole world?: not being in control of my won mind/personal power.
Have you ever contemplated suicide?: i've contemplated the subject, but not personally felt the need to commit suicide.
Have you ever tried to commit it?: nope
Would you donate an organ to your best friend?: yes? haha
What is the worst thing that ever happened to you?: nothing too bad has ever really happened, nothing substantially bad.
Are you afraid of death?: yep, but just of something leading to death itself, like no way out, not really of death itself.
What do you think happens afterwards?: i'm not sure. at times i feel like nothing happens, at times i feel like you'll go to heaven or hell. but i'm not getting into it, i'd be filling up this whole page with opinions on this one.
Are you a religious person?: nope. religion is a joke. a faithfull person, i can be, and i'd like to be more so, but religion is a completely different thing, religion shouldn't have to exist.
What *do* you believe?: ^
What are you passionate about?: not many things. writing. feeling. thinking.
Do you carry a lot of guilt?: nope
Would you carry a gun?: fuck no
Do you have a lot of anger?: yes
Have you ever thought you were going crazy?: haha. yes seriously yes.
Have you ever thought that maybe you ARE? and this is all in your head?: yes. and that question gave me a little chill. because i wonder about that all the time.
How did you like this survey?: i like it.
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Ok by the grace of the almighty you get a billion bucks dropped into your bank account what do you do!
1. First thing you do?
wonder how i got a billion bucks dropped into a non existent bank account. maybe i should get on that?
2. First thing you would buy for yourself?
a car. then maaaaad clothes. a computer. shoooeeeeeeessss. maybe boobs.
3. What would you buy your Mom?
i would pay off all of her debt. buy her a new house. and a horse or somethiing.
4. What would you buy for your father?
a fucking brain.
5. What would you get your Brother?
i would honestly buy them anything they wanted. put money in an account for them to go to college and stuff one day.
6. What would you get your boyfriend or significant other?
i don't have one of those. i have a few significant others. but i honestly don't think i'd get them anything off top. if they asked or something or something caught my eye i'd grab it.
7. What would you get your friends?
ANYTHING. cars, jewlery, accessories, clothes, shoes.
8. What would you tell your boss?
i'd ask him what he wanted me to buy him.
9. What good cause or contribution would you make?
i'd donate a ton of it to like everything medical research facility in the world. maybe open a good few hospitals or something in poor countries.
10. Person you would call and gloat about your new found wealth?
i wouldn't tell anyone who wasn't directly involved in my new found wealth.
11. Would you go back to school and if so what would you major in?
i would go to school forever. for real. for a while, and take a bunch of majors. mainly english, journalism, advertising, philosophy.
12. Would you party more frequently?
probalby not. i party a good lot already.
13. What new, crazy, and over the top thing would you do?
get fake boobs.
14. What would be the second thing you would buy for yourself?
15. Would you let the money get to your head?
i hope not. but i think it might be inevitable. then again knowing me i'd end up losing the money or something.
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1. When drunk I...
make out with everything. sing and dance a lot. talk a mile a minute. think i'm invincible.
2. Do you talk about Religion or Deep meaning thoughts?
yep almost always haha
3. Do you Cry?
not usually. but i have.
4. Do you get Angry?
somtiemes
5. Do you Vomit?
hardly ever.
6. After 7 beers you are?
good. haha
7. After 1 shot of 151 you are?
chasin the shit out of it.
8. Your favorite drink is?
i really like hurricanes, iron city, and calico and dr pepper, and snake bites.
9. Tequila does what to you?
apparently makes me make out with old men? and not remember anything, but want to fuck everything. haha
10. Whiskey makes you?
mean i think. last time i drank it i got into a completely ridiculous argument.
11. Who do you drink with?
friends?
12. Vodka makes you?
drunk? nothihng special.
13. Do you smoke when you drink?
always cigs. sometimes weed.
15. Do you Pass Out?..
no i black out sometimes i think
16. do you drink girly drinks?
when i have the chance.
17. Do you drink alone?
nope
18. Worst Drink you have ever had?
fucking shots called blow jobs. including vodka and whip cream.
19. Do you play drinking games?
yep. rock and roll mcvodka.
20. Drunk Phone Calls to people?
always. always. i'm that annoying bitch calling just to pretty much let you listen to her conversation with the people she's out with, laughing and cheering for dumb shit. and forgetting like 500 times that i'm even on the phone.
21. Drink and Drive?
noooo! but ironically i had to drive myself home last night when i was absolutely sauuuucced, i don't even have a license but the person who's car it was was drunk too. and he said he trusted me more than he trusted himself. still a dumb assssssss decision.
22. What IS YOUR FAVORITE BEER?
yang-a-lang. or iron city.
24. What is your favorite shot?
snake bites.
25. What will you NOT drink?
gay shit that takes entirely too long to get drunk off of, like mikes, or zimas or something.
26. Are you a lightweight when it comes to drinking?
not anymore no.
27. Do you like the drinks with the little umbrellas?
yeah sure.
28. Do you ever drink Bacardi Silver?
fuuuck no. one of the gay drinks.
29. Do you like frozen drinks?
i don't relaly know.
30. Do you drink hard liquor straight?
yep. mostly with a chaser though.
31. Do you ever drink out of the bottle?
yeah
32. Have you ever drank a jagerbomb?
nope fuck all that. i don't wanna explode my heart.
33. Are you drunk right now?
nope
34. Do you consume more than 2 alcoholic beverages a day?
nope
35. Do you drink a lot of wine?
no
36. When's the last time you drank?
yesterday
37. Have you ever thrown up from drinking?
yep
38. Do you feel horny when you drink?
yesssss
39. Ever done a Keg Stand?
nope not fully haha
40. Name someone that will repost this drinking survey:
no one is lamer than me, except maybe sam, haha as lame anyways, and she's who i got it from.
41. Ever been streaking while drinking?
nope
42. Hot tub/pool naked because of alcohol?
yep
43. Failed any college courses due to alcohol alone?
nope
44. Ever hooked up w/more than 1 person in a night because of alcohol?
not really hooked up per say.
45. Ever woken up & said "dude where's my car?"
hahha no? but i'm going to tommorrow.
46. Ever carried someone up & down the same flight of stairs?
nope
47. Have you ever taken the shirt off your back to clean up a friends puke?
no haha but i did clean sams' puke by accident one time.
48. Puked in a friends car?
nope
49. Puked in a friend's house?
yep. the only time i've ever threw up it's been at hannahs.
50. Ever drank more beers than years?
naww
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1. When is the last time you held hands with someone? today
2. You wake up as the opposite gender, what's the one thing you do? jack offff! haha
3. Have you ever crawled through a window? yep
4. Where is your mum? work
5. Morning or night person? nighttttt for sure
6. What was the last movie you watched? i'm half watching snakes on a plane right now.
7. Do you have a crush on anyone right now? yep, kinda. i always have some crush or another.
8. Any cool scars? not really cool ones. i used to have a heart scar, because i put a heart on my hip with a pin, so i'd have a cool scar. (gay or?) but it didn't stay.
9. Things about the opposite sex you notice first: teeeeeeth/mouth, hands, wether or not they make eye contact.
10. What do you do when no one is watching? a lot of things?
11. Ever been in love? yes
12. What's something your friends make fun of you for? making stories seem more interesting than they really are, but going back on it before the story is even out of my mouth, ending up with the regular story.
13. What is your curfew? don't hvae one anymore.
14. Would you ever dye your hair red? fuck no. i used to love red hair, untill i couldn't get it out of my hair.
15. You + alcohol = funny stories.
16. What's your worst personality flaw? my being an extreme hypocondriac, or my pride issue.
17. What career would you wish to be in? something having to do with writing.
18. Which country would you like to visit? italy and brazil.
19. Do you want a well paying job or a job you enjoy? both, but more recently i need to go with the first one.
20. Do you wish to have the same best friends when you're older? yep, maybe make a few new ones though.
21. Do you believe in needing a religion? fuck no, don't even get me started, that's the reason for religion itself, people's need for something to construct their lives upon, and live under, it's ridiculous.
22. What did you wear today? pink shortsuit thing to work, then hooters outfit, then jeans and a long tank top with a bunch of different colors on it.
23. When were you last on the phone? about an hour ago.
24. What shoes did you wear today? yellow wooden bottem flip flops.
25. Do you like math? nope
26. What about history? yes
27. Have you ever seen 5 squirrels at one time? i don't know
28. Can you touch your nose with your tongue? if i push them together.
29. Do you have a brother? yep 2
30. Did your great grandad fight in the civil war? i doubt it.
31. Who's your favorite person to talk to online? dave.
32. Have you ever used photobucket? yes
33. Do you like hugs? so much.
34. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? nope
35. Do you want to be a doctor? noooo i would think i was dying all the time
36. Have you ever fallen asleep with gum in your mouth? yep
37. What do you do right before you go to sleep? smoke a cig
38. Right when you get out of bed you: smoke a cig/look in the mirror? ew i sound gay as fuck.
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40. Would you date a guy with hair longer than yours? i don't know. i'm not relaly looking to, but you never know.
41. Do you want to be famous? fuuuuuck no.
42. Do you spend a lot of time contemplating life's cause? yesssssss way too much time.
43. Do you do your own laundry? yes.
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45. Last song you sang: i'm singing spill canvas, sunsets and car crashes right now
46. Last person you hugged: doug? i think
47. Last thing you laughed at: me and brooke pretending to be mermaids/ in the bermuda triangle, on rays bed a little bit ago hahahahha
48?
49. Last time you cried: today, appologizing to my mom for driving drunk, and because she made me feel really guilty and stupid. and rightly so.
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51. What's under your bed: nothing it's just mattresses.
52. What time did you wake up today: 9
53. Current annoyance? my runny nose, and not being able to breath cause i'm sick.
55. Current desktop background: brookes face, it's her computer.
wow. coooooool man.
Instead, what's the best thing anyone has ever called you?: my friend justin, with the most sincere face, told me that the reason he can't not love me is because every single time he sees me the feeling never fades. for three years, the way i look, and the vibe that i give off, never goes away. i started crying instantly.
How old do you feel?: my age
How old do you look?: my age
How tall is your best friend?: five six or seven
What color hair did your 5th grade teacher have?: blondish gray
What color are your father's eyes?: blue green
Where do you wish you lived?: new yorkk or california
A Bit Deeper Now...
Do you remember your dreams?: sometimes
If so, tell me the one that disturbed you the most: one where i gave donald aids or something, through i needle that i heroin addict used.
How about the one that made you feel really good?: chris caraba from dashboard fingered me in my dream two nights ago?
When you were a child, did you have very vivid nightmares?: i don't know if they were very vivid, i always got the details mixed up.
If so, do you remember them even now?: yeah
Were you ever betrayed by someone you trusted implicitly?: yep
What do you do when you're home alone?: talk to myself, sing really loud, walk around the house in underwear and check myself out, and smoke a lot of cigs.
What do you think about when you are trying to fall asleep at night?: EVERYTHING.
Do you fall asleep easily?: not really. but it's not hard for me either.
Who do you trust the most?: a few people. i guess my mom the most.
Tell Me Your Secrets...
Are there things that you've never told another human being?: no i have a huge mouth.
If so, have you ever even written them down?: yep i write everything down.
Have you ever been deeply hurt by a friend?: yes
If so, have you ever *really* forgiven them?: i try, i'm working on it.
Are you a virgin?: nope
How do you feel about that?: sometimes i wish i could go back to being a virgin, no real pain, and i was as fucking psychotic bitch.
Is there anything that you really regret doing?: not deeply no
How about *not* doing?: yes, but i'm pretty impulsive so most of the time i don't *not* do something.
We're Really Deep Now...
What frightens you the most in the whole world?: not being in control of my won mind/personal power.
Have you ever contemplated suicide?: i've contemplated the subject, but not personally felt the need to commit suicide.
Have you ever tried to commit it?: nope
Would you donate an organ to your best friend?: yes? haha
What is the worst thing that ever happened to you?: nothing too bad has ever really happened, nothing substantially bad.
Are you afraid of death?: yep, but just of something leading to death itself, like no way out, not really of death itself.
What do you think happens afterwards?: i'm not sure. at times i feel like nothing happens, at times i feel like you'll go to heaven or hell. but i'm not getting into it, i'd be filling up this whole page with opinions on this one.
Are you a religious person?: nope. religion is a joke. a faithfull person, i can be, and i'd like to be more so, but religion is a completely different thing, religion shouldn't have to exist.
What *do* you believe?: ^
What are you passionate about?: not many things. writing. feeling. thinking.
Do you carry a lot of guilt?: nope
Would you carry a gun?: fuck no
Do you have a lot of anger?: yes
Have you ever thought you were going crazy?: haha. yes seriously yes.
Have you ever thought that maybe you ARE? and this is all in your head?: yes. and that question gave me a little chill. because i wonder about that all the time.
How did you like this survey?: i like it.
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Ok by the grace of the almighty you get a billion bucks dropped into your bank account what do you do!
1. First thing you do?
wonder how i got a billion bucks dropped into a non existent bank account. maybe i should get on that?
2. First thing you would buy for yourself?
a car. then maaaaad clothes. a computer. shoooeeeeeeessss. maybe boobs.
3. What would you buy your Mom?
i would pay off all of her debt. buy her a new house. and a horse or somethiing.
4. What would you buy for your father?
a fucking brain.
5. What would you get your Brother?
i would honestly buy them anything they wanted. put money in an account for them to go to college and stuff one day.
6. What would you get your boyfriend or significant other?
i don't have one of those. i have a few significant others. but i honestly don't think i'd get them anything off top. if they asked or something or something caught my eye i'd grab it.
7. What would you get your friends?
ANYTHING. cars, jewlery, accessories, clothes, shoes.
8. What would you tell your boss?
i'd ask him what he wanted me to buy him.
9. What good cause or contribution would you make?
i'd donate a ton of it to like everything medical research facility in the world. maybe open a good few hospitals or something in poor countries.
10. Person you would call and gloat about your new found wealth?
i wouldn't tell anyone who wasn't directly involved in my new found wealth.
11. Would you go back to school and if so what would you major in?
i would go to school forever. for real. for a while, and take a bunch of majors. mainly english, journalism, advertising, philosophy.
12. Would you party more frequently?
probalby not. i party a good lot already.
13. What new, crazy, and over the top thing would you do?
get fake boobs.
14. What would be the second thing you would buy for yourself?
15. Would you let the money get to your head?
i hope not. but i think it might be inevitable. then again knowing me i'd end up losing the money or something.
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1. When drunk I...
make out with everything. sing and dance a lot. talk a mile a minute. think i'm invincible.
2. Do you talk about Religion or Deep meaning thoughts?
yep almost always haha
3. Do you Cry?
not usually. but i have.
4. Do you get Angry?
somtiemes
5. Do you Vomit?
hardly ever.
6. After 7 beers you are?
good. haha
7. After 1 shot of 151 you are?
chasin the shit out of it.
8. Your favorite drink is?
i really like hurricanes, iron city, and calico and dr pepper, and snake bites.
9. Tequila does what to you?
apparently makes me make out with old men? and not remember anything, but want to fuck everything. haha
10. Whiskey makes you?
mean i think. last time i drank it i got into a completely ridiculous argument.
11. Who do you drink with?
friends?
12. Vodka makes you?
drunk? nothihng special.
13. Do you smoke when you drink?
always cigs. sometimes weed.
15. Do you Pass Out?..
no i black out sometimes i think
16. do you drink girly drinks?
when i have the chance.
17. Do you drink alone?
nope
18. Worst Drink you have ever had?
fucking shots called blow jobs. including vodka and whip cream.
19. Do you play drinking games?
yep. rock and roll mcvodka.
20. Drunk Phone Calls to people?
always. always. i'm that annoying bitch calling just to pretty much let you listen to her conversation with the people she's out with, laughing and cheering for dumb shit. and forgetting like 500 times that i'm even on the phone.
21. Drink and Drive?
noooo! but ironically i had to drive myself home last night when i was absolutely sauuuucced, i don't even have a license but the person who's car it was was drunk too. and he said he trusted me more than he trusted himself. still a dumb assssssss decision.
22. What IS YOUR FAVORITE BEER?
yang-a-lang. or iron city.
24. What is your favorite shot?
snake bites.
25. What will you NOT drink?
gay shit that takes entirely too long to get drunk off of, like mikes, or zimas or something.
26. Are you a lightweight when it comes to drinking?
not anymore no.
27. Do you like the drinks with the little umbrellas?
yeah sure.
28. Do you ever drink Bacardi Silver?
fuuuck no. one of the gay drinks.
29. Do you like frozen drinks?
i don't relaly know.
30. Do you drink hard liquor straight?
yep. mostly with a chaser though.
31. Do you ever drink out of the bottle?
yeah
32. Have you ever drank a jagerbomb?
nope fuck all that. i don't wanna explode my heart.
33. Are you drunk right now?
nope
34. Do you consume more than 2 alcoholic beverages a day?
nope
35. Do you drink a lot of wine?
no
36. When's the last time you drank?
yesterday
37. Have you ever thrown up from drinking?
yep
38. Do you feel horny when you drink?
yesssss
39. Ever done a Keg Stand?
nope not fully haha
40. Name someone that will repost this drinking survey:
no one is lamer than me, except maybe sam, haha as lame anyways, and she's who i got it from.
41. Ever been streaking while drinking?
nope
42. Hot tub/pool naked because of alcohol?
yep
43. Failed any college courses due to alcohol alone?
nope
44. Ever hooked up w/more than 1 person in a night because of alcohol?
not really hooked up per say.
45. Ever woken up & said "dude where's my car?"
hahha no? but i'm going to tommorrow.
46. Ever carried someone up & down the same flight of stairs?
nope
47. Have you ever taken the shirt off your back to clean up a friends puke?
no haha but i did clean sams' puke by accident one time.
48. Puked in a friends car?
nope
49. Puked in a friend's house?
yep. the only time i've ever threw up it's been at hannahs.
50. Ever drank more beers than years?
naww
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1. When is the last time you held hands with someone? today
2. You wake up as the opposite gender, what's the one thing you do? jack offff! haha
3. Have you ever crawled through a window? yep
4. Where is your mum? work
5. Morning or night person? nighttttt for sure
6. What was the last movie you watched? i'm half watching snakes on a plane right now.
7. Do you have a crush on anyone right now? yep, kinda. i always have some crush or another.
8. Any cool scars? not really cool ones. i used to have a heart scar, because i put a heart on my hip with a pin, so i'd have a cool scar. (gay or?) but it didn't stay.
9. Things about the opposite sex you notice first: teeeeeeth/mouth, hands, wether or not they make eye contact.
10. What do you do when no one is watching? a lot of things?
11. Ever been in love? yes
12. What's something your friends make fun of you for? making stories seem more interesting than they really are, but going back on it before the story is even out of my mouth, ending up with the regular story.
13. What is your curfew? don't hvae one anymore.
14. Would you ever dye your hair red? fuck no. i used to love red hair, untill i couldn't get it out of my hair.
15. You + alcohol = funny stories.
16. What's your worst personality flaw? my being an extreme hypocondriac, or my pride issue.
17. What career would you wish to be in? something having to do with writing.
18. Which country would you like to visit? italy and brazil.
19. Do you want a well paying job or a job you enjoy? both, but more recently i need to go with the first one.
20. Do you wish to have the same best friends when you're older? yep, maybe make a few new ones though.
21. Do you believe in needing a religion? fuck no, don't even get me started, that's the reason for religion itself, people's need for something to construct their lives upon, and live under, it's ridiculous.
22. What did you wear today? pink shortsuit thing to work, then hooters outfit, then jeans and a long tank top with a bunch of different colors on it.
23. When were you last on the phone? about an hour ago.
24. What shoes did you wear today? yellow wooden bottem flip flops.
25. Do you like math? nope
26. What about history? yes
27. Have you ever seen 5 squirrels at one time? i don't know
28. Can you touch your nose with your tongue? if i push them together.
29. Do you have a brother? yep 2
30. Did your great grandad fight in the civil war? i doubt it.
31. Who's your favorite person to talk to online? dave.
32. Have you ever used photobucket? yes
33. Do you like hugs? so much.
34. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? nope
35. Do you want to be a doctor? noooo i would think i was dying all the time
36. Have you ever fallen asleep with gum in your mouth? yep
37. What do you do right before you go to sleep? smoke a cig
38. Right when you get out of bed you: smoke a cig/look in the mirror? ew i sound gay as fuck.
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40. Would you date a guy with hair longer than yours? i don't know. i'm not relaly looking to, but you never know.
41. Do you want to be famous? fuuuuuck no.
42. Do you spend a lot of time contemplating life's cause? yesssssss way too much time.
43. Do you do your own laundry? yes.
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45. Last song you sang: i'm singing spill canvas, sunsets and car crashes right now
46. Last person you hugged: doug? i think
47. Last thing you laughed at: me and brooke pretending to be mermaids/ in the bermuda triangle, on rays bed a little bit ago hahahahha
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49. Last time you cried: today, appologizing to my mom for driving drunk, and because she made me feel really guilty and stupid. and rightly so.
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51. What's under your bed: nothing it's just mattresses.
52. What time did you wake up today: 9
53. Current annoyance? my runny nose, and not being able to breath cause i'm sick.
55. Current desktop background: brookes face, it's her computer.
wow. coooooool man.