i've learned to live my life without you.
perfectly content with where i'm at. and for some reason, it just doesn't seem good enough. at least that's what becca thinks. i KNOW that's what she thinks!! and it irks me!! she is SUPPOSED to be one of my best friends and she just can't get over the fact that this is where i should be at this point in my life.
i dunno why i let her bother me so much. why i care for her so much. when i treat her as one of my best friends and then she goes and says it like she's my best friend and then treat me the way she treated me this weekend.
i was so hurt. :/ i told my mom i wasn't. but she said, why do you say you don't care. when you really do? and i just sat there. i didn't know what to say. i've been hurt before in friendships and i've cut those ppl out of my life. but for some strange reason i can't cut becca out.
she told me she came down here to see her parents and guess who the second person on the list was?? ME. Well and of course Tabatha too. but tabatha already told me that she had decided she wasn't gonna see becca because she was spending time w/ lauren, so becca didn't make an effort to call her. when she should've.
and guess who she spent 24/7 with??? FRED. ugh. she doesn't love him. she can do so much better. he's not attractive. he's a freakin' prick. he doesn't make her laugh. i have NO IDEA what she sees in him. and it makes me sick.
i was supposed to spend the day w/becca. but things came up and i spent it w/my sister. and then i went to rainforest cafe that night w/becca and her friends. and then when we got back all she did was talk and talk and talk to Fred. f that! i was sick of it. i shouldn't even stayed the night. but i couldn't help it. i wanted to see becca and that was my chance and it was a waste of time.
so becca if you so happen to EVER read this. know that i'm sorry i said this about you. but yet, you really hurt my feelings when you said you would do something and then didn't.
but enough about that. i LOVE LOVE hanging out w/my nephew and my sister. i spend alot of time w/em since i only work 4 days a week now.
oh ya and i get my MAC sometime this week. because that's when my loan check will be coming in!
me and ashley wanted to go out tonight. but she never got off of work. so i guess we aren't going out. i miss hanging out with that girl.
i get to have my own life now that she's gone. and i love it.
i dunno why i let her bother me so much. why i care for her so much. when i treat her as one of my best friends and then she goes and says it like she's my best friend and then treat me the way she treated me this weekend.
i was so hurt. :/ i told my mom i wasn't. but she said, why do you say you don't care. when you really do? and i just sat there. i didn't know what to say. i've been hurt before in friendships and i've cut those ppl out of my life. but for some strange reason i can't cut becca out.
she told me she came down here to see her parents and guess who the second person on the list was?? ME. Well and of course Tabatha too. but tabatha already told me that she had decided she wasn't gonna see becca because she was spending time w/ lauren, so becca didn't make an effort to call her. when she should've.
and guess who she spent 24/7 with??? FRED. ugh. she doesn't love him. she can do so much better. he's not attractive. he's a freakin' prick. he doesn't make her laugh. i have NO IDEA what she sees in him. and it makes me sick.
i was supposed to spend the day w/becca. but things came up and i spent it w/my sister. and then i went to rainforest cafe that night w/becca and her friends. and then when we got back all she did was talk and talk and talk to Fred. f that! i was sick of it. i shouldn't even stayed the night. but i couldn't help it. i wanted to see becca and that was my chance and it was a waste of time.
so becca if you so happen to EVER read this. know that i'm sorry i said this about you. but yet, you really hurt my feelings when you said you would do something and then didn't.
but enough about that. i LOVE LOVE hanging out w/my nephew and my sister. i spend alot of time w/em since i only work 4 days a week now.
oh ya and i get my MAC sometime this week. because that's when my loan check will be coming in!
me and ashley wanted to go out tonight. but she never got off of work. so i guess we aren't going out. i miss hanging out with that girl.
i get to have my own life now that she's gone. and i love it.