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sorry the update has taken SO DAMN LONG.
Yeah, i'm leaving partial soon. YAY! Then home all summer, unless my mum agrees to Providence with ample recommendations from my psychs. Or unless i "act out" again. READ:suicide attempt. or major cutting episode
The people at the Partial place are kooky. They think i'm anorexic. With the only information being TWO DAYS WORTH OF FOOD JOURNALS.
Recovery and Treatment SUCK.
They dont even have me on the right meds. Theyre switching me from Zoloft to something else. Dunno what yet.
So ive been good at partial, (with the exception of the time i made myself throw up on the murse lady cuz she wouldnt let me go to the bathroom after lunch alone) and they gave me a koosh ball. Hence the new layout. I never realised how cool and theraputic those damn koosh balls are.
Started to re-do my room for the umpteenth time. Built shelves in closet, Put computer and video games and radio on shelves. Painted ugly molding dark blue. More to do this weekend.
**NEW STATS** ^_^
hw.188
lw.138
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sw.176 (6/1)
sbmi.29.3
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cw.162
cbmi.27.0
ht.65in
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stgw.140
ltgw.104
gbmi.17.3
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d e a r a n a
i l o v e y o u
to the bones
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I'm so so so happy at the reappearance of my collarbones....and my ribs....oh my ribs....still not enough though...i will do it this month. i have to. i wanna reach my ltgw before school starts back up again. wanna reach my stgw by july 30. i can do it. 14 down, 58 to go....
god why does this have to be so important to me....but it is.
Yeah, i'm leaving partial soon. YAY! Then home all summer, unless my mum agrees to Providence with ample recommendations from my psychs. Or unless i "act out" again. READ:suicide attempt. or major cutting episode
The people at the Partial place are kooky. They think i'm anorexic. With the only information being TWO DAYS WORTH OF FOOD JOURNALS.
Recovery and Treatment SUCK.
They dont even have me on the right meds. Theyre switching me from Zoloft to something else. Dunno what yet.
So ive been good at partial, (with the exception of the time i made myself throw up on the murse lady cuz she wouldnt let me go to the bathroom after lunch alone) and they gave me a koosh ball. Hence the new layout. I never realised how cool and theraputic those damn koosh balls are.
Started to re-do my room for the umpteenth time. Built shelves in closet, Put computer and video games and radio on shelves. Painted ugly molding dark blue. More to do this weekend.
**NEW STATS** ^_^
hw.188
lw.138
---
sw.176 (6/1)
sbmi.29.3
---
cw.162
cbmi.27.0
ht.65in
---
stgw.140
ltgw.104
gbmi.17.3
---
d e a r a n a
i l o v e y o u
to the bones
---
I'm so so so happy at the reappearance of my collarbones....and my ribs....oh my ribs....still not enough though...i will do it this month. i have to. i wanna reach my ltgw before school starts back up again. wanna reach my stgw by july 30. i can do it. 14 down, 58 to go....
god why does this have to be so important to me....but it is.