just like that.
i can't believe i've been friends with that alisa chick for so fucking long. she drives me completely insane. what a freak of nature. she thinks she is the shit. when really, she just smells like it. god. i can't wait until she leaves next week. i'm so tired of her self absorbed crap. i'm sick of listening to her talk about everyone behind their backs. gossip, gossip, gossip. drama, drama, drama. allllll day long.
and by all of that. i mean the exact opposite. i love alisa. to dead.
oh, but for real. stupid people need to get over themselves.
i've been painting a lot lately. it makes me feel refreshed and nice. hahh. empire records. anyways, i never think about anything while i'm painting. everything just sort of comes out. i don't focus on how terrified i am of whats to come. i don't stress out over crap that is unnecessary. its just nice. i feel natural. like, for once i don't have to pretend. the creative side of me just comes out and i feel in control.
my list of people i need to see before i leave seems to be growing. but in reality, there are just a few people that i wish i could spend every minute with. ahhh.
i've been talking to mary (one of the other recruits) a lot lately. i like her. we decided that we're just going to suck at crew together next year. at least i won't be the only one. hmm. i probably still will be. but oh well.
mhmm. mhummm. !