isnt life funny?
I sit here at the Fort Washington store covering a shift, awaiting for my ride to pull up in the front, I sit here and I update my journal.
Has anyone ever noticed that no one reads my journal? What the hell do I have it for? I mean all I do is post about how bad my life is and who is hurting me here and who is hurting me there, and all my hopes and dreams, (90% of which did not come true.) Let me tell you something, I just came to the conclusion that Love is the most difficult thing in the world to put up with. I sit here and I try to figure out what went wrong in my most recent relationship, but nothing strikes me as it being not a difficult thing. It was highly challenging, most of all, it wasn't the best thing in the world at the time I guess. I love Averie, I love her dearly, and I would still do anything to be with her, I wish she wasn't out of my life. There lies one problem though, I am basing my life on dreams and hopes. I need to wake up and realize that in my life it is going to be a challenge. Ever since I was born and deemed a Gold, my life has been challenging and I have made it through all of it, and still have no bad bruises.
I hope it doesn't take me long to get over her, I hope it only takes a few days, maybe even a few weeks, but I hope I can say, "Hey I am moved on and pursuing something else". I do need to re-evaluate the way I go about being a boyfriend though, I was not perfect, but I thought I was pretty damn good, better than most guys, and I do put up with more than anyone else might put up with.
Anyways, it is time for me to leave and I am ready to hit the hay.
Happy Turkey day to everyone!!
That is all.
Has anyone ever noticed that no one reads my journal? What the hell do I have it for? I mean all I do is post about how bad my life is and who is hurting me here and who is hurting me there, and all my hopes and dreams, (90% of which did not come true.) Let me tell you something, I just came to the conclusion that Love is the most difficult thing in the world to put up with. I sit here and I try to figure out what went wrong in my most recent relationship, but nothing strikes me as it being not a difficult thing. It was highly challenging, most of all, it wasn't the best thing in the world at the time I guess. I love Averie, I love her dearly, and I would still do anything to be with her, I wish she wasn't out of my life. There lies one problem though, I am basing my life on dreams and hopes. I need to wake up and realize that in my life it is going to be a challenge. Ever since I was born and deemed a Gold, my life has been challenging and I have made it through all of it, and still have no bad bruises.
I hope it doesn't take me long to get over her, I hope it only takes a few days, maybe even a few weeks, but I hope I can say, "Hey I am moved on and pursuing something else". I do need to re-evaluate the way I go about being a boyfriend though, I was not perfect, but I thought I was pretty damn good, better than most guys, and I do put up with more than anyone else might put up with.
Anyways, it is time for me to leave and I am ready to hit the hay.
Happy Turkey day to everyone!!
That is all.