time...Life...A post with substance maybe?
Let me start by saying sorry if every single post I have done, (although sporadic at best), have been about being happy, being in love, and merely boring. I have come to the conclusion that life is short, and that things just have to work themselves out no matter if you want to alter the way the ending may come.
My life has been a fairytale so to speak, a book, and hopefully in this novel there will be some kind of happy ending. Now I have done what I can to make sure my love life is sustaining, to make sure that the woman in my life is as happy as she can be. As I stick my hands out tho, the sand is running right through my fingers. The relationship is there but sometimes is not there. Work has become increasingly difficult, I am burning myself out, and there is no relief in site. My father is still being a dickhead, and the one person in my life I need to turn to is tired of me as well.
I have come to quite a few conclusions, the first lesson learned in my novel is to not rush things, although I never really rushed anything, but still try to make things slow down. I had the perfect relationship, (in my eyes that is), for 5 months. The past month has been hard, really hard, this is the ultimate test, if Averie and I can survive this month and the new few to come, then our relationship will survive. There is more to life then stressing your loved one and being all in their face.
Have you ever just sat outside and looked up at the stars and started thinking hard, it could be about anything but just thinking hard about where you want your life to possibly be, and where you see yourself? I see myself happy, living comfortably, and with a beautiful woman who is happy. Not necessarily with a family just yet, but I see myself with someone who compliments me, someone who makes me just as happy as I make her, and no matter what she is there for me, no matter what we argue about, no matter what we do or how we do it, there is that love.
Love is a building block, there is several versions, but the version I see myself in a this point is in love. I say this because if I see myself with this person or see myself with them for a long time with no chance of that flame burning out, then that is me being in love. All the critics can say what they want, my friends can tell me their opinions, and they might be right, as the past may tell, but I am here to work things out, until I am sure that the flame has burnt out and there is no possibility of us being together, then I will give up, until then, David will not give up.
My back is killing me, I have a sinus headache, I am stressed about my life, about work, and about bills, and my relationship is not at the level that It used to be, or want it to be. What can I do, I can just be happy and live. If she loves me, then things will work themsevles out, God is looking out for me, he will not let me fall, and he will only know for sure if we will work out. God is the overseeing factor in everything that is life.
I think no mater what happens, I will be a lot happier once my book is done.
That is all Folks...
My life has been a fairytale so to speak, a book, and hopefully in this novel there will be some kind of happy ending. Now I have done what I can to make sure my love life is sustaining, to make sure that the woman in my life is as happy as she can be. As I stick my hands out tho, the sand is running right through my fingers. The relationship is there but sometimes is not there. Work has become increasingly difficult, I am burning myself out, and there is no relief in site. My father is still being a dickhead, and the one person in my life I need to turn to is tired of me as well.
I have come to quite a few conclusions, the first lesson learned in my novel is to not rush things, although I never really rushed anything, but still try to make things slow down. I had the perfect relationship, (in my eyes that is), for 5 months. The past month has been hard, really hard, this is the ultimate test, if Averie and I can survive this month and the new few to come, then our relationship will survive. There is more to life then stressing your loved one and being all in their face.
Have you ever just sat outside and looked up at the stars and started thinking hard, it could be about anything but just thinking hard about where you want your life to possibly be, and where you see yourself? I see myself happy, living comfortably, and with a beautiful woman who is happy. Not necessarily with a family just yet, but I see myself with someone who compliments me, someone who makes me just as happy as I make her, and no matter what she is there for me, no matter what we argue about, no matter what we do or how we do it, there is that love.
Love is a building block, there is several versions, but the version I see myself in a this point is in love. I say this because if I see myself with this person or see myself with them for a long time with no chance of that flame burning out, then that is me being in love. All the critics can say what they want, my friends can tell me their opinions, and they might be right, as the past may tell, but I am here to work things out, until I am sure that the flame has burnt out and there is no possibility of us being together, then I will give up, until then, David will not give up.
My back is killing me, I have a sinus headache, I am stressed about my life, about work, and about bills, and my relationship is not at the level that It used to be, or want it to be. What can I do, I can just be happy and live. If she loves me, then things will work themsevles out, God is looking out for me, he will not let me fall, and he will only know for sure if we will work out. God is the overseeing factor in everything that is life.
I think no mater what happens, I will be a lot happier once my book is done.
That is all Folks...