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Yeah.. im stuck here at the community center.. waiting for my boyfriend to get done with his pool and xbox tournament.. lol.. i was playin halo for a while, but i sucked bad cuz ive never played.. atleast i had an excuse though.. my life is ok i guess.. im pmsing now.. havent had a cig in 2months, a week, and 2 days.. im proud of myself, cuz ive been offered cigs and denied them.. i love david too much to just go off and bullshit him.. if you lie in the beginning itll end up being nothing other than a lie.. hmm.. im glad i dont do drugs or anything anymore.. sure, it seemed like an escape for a while.. and it expanded my mind.. but it also had major downfalls.. you cant escape life forever.. if you get caught in your escape, you could be confined in reality for as long as you live.. i dunno.. im glad for the experiences i had though.. doing things made me me.. so.. yeah.. still havent heard from brian.. which sux.. i wrote that last letter and havent heard shit.. it sux that things fall apart like that.. i dont know what else to do though.. hmm.. ive been gettin kinda weird lately.. maybe cuz im on the rag and am more emotional.. but i get paranoid when davids around kari.. (this married chic at our skool).. i dont trust girls.. its just my thing.. theyre caniving and manipulative.. drama queens.. pathalogical liars.. blah.. not all just the majority.. but yeah.. she pisses me off.. they look at eachother alot and probably talk about alot of things hed never talk to me about.. i guess thats the way it has to be considering our relationship differences.. but yeah.. i have to peepee so im gonna go!!