Divide and Conquer
Today went pretty well I guess. I finally went to one of the navy ROTC meetings last sat. - I was bummed that we had to do physical training and my legs have been really sore the past 2 days. I've been thinking a lot about her - mostly just pondering on her perspective towards "us" and what we have or.. what we could have. I don't know really, I'm just as confused as her probably but I think too much sometimes (well.. I'm told that a lot.). Hell, we'll eventually get something worked out I know - maybe soon - we just haven't talked as much about our feelings lately. I guess its time for both of us to get some things off of our chest. It's funny how a single person can change the flow of your journal entries.. they used to be just blahhh and yeahh, now I have something worth putting in here and its great. If we both understand each other I know it'll be fine. I also wanted to say that I've kinda purposely lodged myself into a safety-net (because what are safety-nets used to prevent? - pain) while we've been talking the past weeks, only because of uncertainity. I cared for very little in my life at one time, now I care a lot for life itself. Afterall, love isn't easy, because with it comes commitment (no matter how scary it may seem... but its the truth). I can be scared of the least threatening of things sometime, but maybe love is threatening? Maybe I should just learn to just let go and breathe in.