You probably don't want to read this.
I feel like such a bitch or something lately. Well, maybe not a bitch, but definitely not something good. I'm so cranky and frustrated. What is this? This isn't me.
I feel like I'm bringing other people down, so I've been kind of avoiding as many social encounters as I can without seeming too suspicious. Something is definitely wrong here.
Yeah, I know school is totally stressful lately, but that can't be all of it. I also haven't been getting much sleep lately.
Another big factor is swimming. I haven't been back for a solid block of practices for at least 2 months I'd say. I keep making up these excuses for myself. I've let it become a habit. Now my excuse is that I'm so slow from not going to all of those practices. But how am I supposed to get faster? I used to love swimming, and I still do, just not the way I used to. I've don't really want to be competitive with it anymore. I still want to swim, but I'm so tired of comparing myself to other people.
Comparing myself to other people.
I swear I'm going to have a nervous breakdown soon.
I'm not disabling the comments, but I really don't want a bunch of "poor thing" comments. I just needed to get this off my chest, and let my friends know what was going on, whether or not anything was suspected.
GAH!