lovesick
theres no other way to describe how i feel right now. and what sucks the most is that i can't just call him. it doesn't work that way anymore.
right...so earlier...i tried to play a DVD in my computer and apparently it doesnt want to play them anymore. oh well.
back on the lovesick topic. i went to bed around 930 tonight and here i am at 1115 trying to go to sleep.
it hurts me to think that its lust and not like. i don't want it to be lust. it could be lust...after all he is a frat guy. and why do i feel the need to expect the worst out of people? is that really how we should go through life? expecting everyone to disappoint us? but it could be like...i mean he has already put up with enough of my crap for nothing in return. and i just feel like im that girl that hangs out with him sometimes...
like a pest. like he doesn't want to hear from me.
and i wouldn't question so much if it wasn't finals time...i suppose that makes it harder to decipher (sp?) what's really going on.
i don't want to cry about someone i hardly know. its just not the right time for something like that.
so i guess i have to know huh? do i have the right to know? i suppose i really don't have the right to anything...but that's what's gotta happen now.
and this was pretty scatterbrained....
right...so earlier...i tried to play a DVD in my computer and apparently it doesnt want to play them anymore. oh well.
back on the lovesick topic. i went to bed around 930 tonight and here i am at 1115 trying to go to sleep.
it hurts me to think that its lust and not like. i don't want it to be lust. it could be lust...after all he is a frat guy. and why do i feel the need to expect the worst out of people? is that really how we should go through life? expecting everyone to disappoint us? but it could be like...i mean he has already put up with enough of my crap for nothing in return. and i just feel like im that girl that hangs out with him sometimes...
like a pest. like he doesn't want to hear from me.
and i wouldn't question so much if it wasn't finals time...i suppose that makes it harder to decipher (sp?) what's really going on.
i don't want to cry about someone i hardly know. its just not the right time for something like that.
so i guess i have to know huh? do i have the right to know? i suppose i really don't have the right to anything...but that's what's gotta happen now.
and this was pretty scatterbrained....