i wonder do i still have the same heart....

[slitmythroatx]

fuck ... actually what the fuck.. i have no clue what to think anymore .. i hate being such a jealous boyfriend but could it possibly be that another boy calls my girlfriend at 1 in the morning and writes little fucking things like me and abby forever.. you know what fuck you. i hope you die... i am soo crazy right now i have no clue what to think or what to feel.. i know that it seems dumb but i know that you would feel the exact same way too.. maybe worse.. goddamit why do i have to think so dumb all the time well atleast now all the time.. fuck i wonder to myself am i actually good enough because i think that if i was good enough than i know that this wouldn't mean a thing.. i wonder even if he is just a so called friend does he like her ..yeah uhmm does she like him and do they chat all the time.. and i wonder if she likes him and she always talks to him.. fuck i really don't care if he is just a friend because i know that i wouldn't allow that shit.. ok well i still love you nothing will change that even if little things get to me like such and such together forever and then the same night he happens to call what the fuck how odd. but ohh well if it is nothing than ok i am over it but if somehthing else well i am sorry.. and i know that you atleast like him a bit i mean you have to, to atleast let him write shit like that and call you that late.. well i am sorry and i feel like nothing rigt now but ohh well because i know that it is probably nothing and i am just getting my undies in a bunch.. well there you have it that is why i was so quiet last night.. but seriuosly why did you get mad last night i did absolutley nothing and you just leave like that.. hmm.. i love you forever.... bye
i wish i could have you to myself..<3
i fucking hate boys i swear to fucking god..die