Long Forgotten Cigarette

[slithalfwaydown]

loneliness setting in
this is nearing the end
all i need is that pistol
but its not me that i shall kill
i don't know who i am
because life is just a scam
i may be bitter
but at least i'm honest
i'm not a quitter
i won't give up on us
nothing is the same though
can't you see that
your love hurt me
his set me free
i want to taste the saline
you don't know where i've been
i don't know what i'm scared of
i sware he was sent from above
if that place exists
fuck you now, i'm pissed
i'll hang this out my mouth
light it up, dance about
step out of the fire
falling down i'm tired
wish he was here
or hope his thoughts were near
maybe he forgot my touch
i knew he saw the love in my eyes
for once i didn't hide it
because i thought he'd give a shit
i hugged him tight
thought we wouldn't fight
like always i was wrong
maybe he can make me strong
five days felt much longer
i can't fall much further
i need his hand in mine
fuck, this might be a sign
i'll hang this out my mouth
light it up, throw it out
i'll wear this forever
thought i was clever
book smart from birth
i've fallen to the dirt
someone pick me up
i need his touch
fuck me up, give me that
i've chosen this fallen path
the road split in half
i chose the less beaten path
the one that scared me
i was forced down here, can't you see
i couldn't be with you here
i need his body near
you are no longer my savior
i need his fucking flavor
no i don't mean that
lay me down in the bath
wash me clean
i won't be mean
i thought he wanted this
i was wrong about his kiss
i thought i'd found the truth
i'll hang this out my mouth
light me up, put me out.