I need you to give me the answer...
I don't where I am supposed to be right now in my life... Should I stay with the company and move to vegas? Leave and work for fairfield meaning live in la jolla? Stay where I am and just deal with the fact that I make $5.00 an hr under everyone here.
My mom is having serious drama with her neighbors and I don't know whats going to happen. I hate working here and seeing everything that goes on with them cause I have to be "professional." When they don't pay their rent on time I have the office breathing down my back like theres something I can do. If lin does gives my mom a notice to move out, she'll flip, she says she'll take them to court. OH lordy!
I desperatly want to be a real teenager again. I want to run to my room to escape the irritating people in my house. I want to be called down to dinner and forced to eat whatever junk my mom made. I want to be the girl who goes to the mall and buys the things that she sees just because "its cute." I want to know that if I'm short of money, the roof above my head won't cave in and leave me homeless. I don't understand why I have to be an adult now. I'm doing the best I can, I guess I chose it....
Today is mike and my 6 month anniversary... hmmmm
If I could I'd save my family from it all I would. Their drowning in debt, sulking in their unhappiness, struggling to feed the crying mouths, and I know their getting tired and weak. If I could I'd be their hero baby.
Right now, I can only carry me.
This entry is scattered....