update of sorts
So Ceal and I attended the first SD doll convention ever held in the states. It was really pretty neat. There were a lot of folks there and lots of good stuff to see. I think she enjoyed herself. Volks was there and I think they liked what they saw. The seemed to be shooting enough video of the event. I'm guessing parts of it will show up in the Volks TV show that airs on TV in Japan.
In other news, things are going about the same. Don't want to be at work today, but am glad I that at least I have a job to go to. So many still don't.
I think I'm going to try and register for class again this fall at UT Arlington. Still trying to work out how to make everything work together but I think I'm getting closer.
I read an interesting article in the school newspaper today. http://www.theshorthorn.com/archive/2004/summer/04-jul-13/o071304-02.html
It gave me pause to think. While I won't say that I generally consider myself an "overachiever" when it comes to school and class, I have turned into a better student over the years. That would mostly be due to my intense fear of failing in my classes. I often suffer from self-doubt when it comes to class. I'm never quite sure I can pass the exams. I often feel that most everyone in the class is smarter than I am. I walk out of almost every exam with a sick feeling that I probably didn't do as well as I should have (only to find out later that I pulled a high B or A on the exam.) This leads to a lot of stress in my life when I am in classes. I obsess about the schedule, I worry about making the assignment due dates, and if anything jostles the cart I start to freak out about it. This does NOT make for a happy home-life.
What I need to do is remember to put everything in perspective. Acknowledge that I am a good student and that I do fairly well in my classes. Continue to prepare my assignments and for my exams but remember to take some time for myself too. I drive too hard towards the end of class and that takes a lot of the enjoyment out of it. Above all else, I have found that I actually enjoy most of my classes now in college. I should savor the experience. School is fun.
So anyway, today I'm attempting to embark on my program to end my paralyzing self-doubt. There's a lot out there that I'm good at. I just have to let myself acknowledge it.
All in all, life is pretty good now. I just need to remember to look on the positives more than the negatives. There's a lot to see and do if you aren't always being gloomy about things.
In other news, things are going about the same. Don't want to be at work today, but am glad I that at least I have a job to go to. So many still don't.
I think I'm going to try and register for class again this fall at UT Arlington. Still trying to work out how to make everything work together but I think I'm getting closer.
I read an interesting article in the school newspaper today. http://www.theshorthorn.com/archive/2004/summer/04-jul-13/o071304-02.html
It gave me pause to think. While I won't say that I generally consider myself an "overachiever" when it comes to school and class, I have turned into a better student over the years. That would mostly be due to my intense fear of failing in my classes. I often suffer from self-doubt when it comes to class. I'm never quite sure I can pass the exams. I often feel that most everyone in the class is smarter than I am. I walk out of almost every exam with a sick feeling that I probably didn't do as well as I should have (only to find out later that I pulled a high B or A on the exam.) This leads to a lot of stress in my life when I am in classes. I obsess about the schedule, I worry about making the assignment due dates, and if anything jostles the cart I start to freak out about it. This does NOT make for a happy home-life.
What I need to do is remember to put everything in perspective. Acknowledge that I am a good student and that I do fairly well in my classes. Continue to prepare my assignments and for my exams but remember to take some time for myself too. I drive too hard towards the end of class and that takes a lot of the enjoyment out of it. Above all else, I have found that I actually enjoy most of my classes now in college. I should savor the experience. School is fun.
So anyway, today I'm attempting to embark on my program to end my paralyzing self-doubt. There's a lot out there that I'm good at. I just have to let myself acknowledge it.
All in all, life is pretty good now. I just need to remember to look on the positives more than the negatives. There's a lot to see and do if you aren't always being gloomy about things.