spend your whole life sweating in an endless fever.
i wish that i could like christmas.
and i wish that i didn't have to be jealous of people that actually got presents.
but,
i can't,
and i am.
i give up on trying to make myself content, i've tried to make it so i don't care. or that i don't have feelings. or that nothing matters. but what do i have to prove to myself?
i read over that to see if it made sense, and i really couldn't tell you if it did or not.
atleast i get to go away,
with two of the only friends that i have.
<333 bni and koz.
i really want to just get rid of this, but then i'd have absolutely nothing to occupy my time.
and i wish that i didn't have to be jealous of people that actually got presents.
but,
i can't,
and i am.
i give up on trying to make myself content, i've tried to make it so i don't care. or that i don't have feelings. or that nothing matters. but what do i have to prove to myself?
i read over that to see if it made sense, and i really couldn't tell you if it did or not.
atleast i get to go away,
with two of the only friends that i have.
<333 bni and koz.
i really want to just get rid of this, but then i'd have absolutely nothing to occupy my time.