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reference January 7th, 2008:
#1: I was wrong. they'll be the same always. And so will your bond. I don't know what I feel.
#2: I make you the bad guy because I think you're too good for me. But you always manage to sway me into letting you back on my good side. I haven't figured out yet if it's manipulation or genuine.
#3: So much time has passed and it kills me that I still fucking think about you. I hate myself for letting you in.
Why do I always want coffee at night time? I wish I could sleep at normal hours and wake up in the morning and not waste my whole day. I need to become more active in life. Nothing's going to change this way. But I don't know how to start. Or I'm just scared to start. I stopped going to the city because I hate being the center of attention and I feel I'm too much in my own head all the time for it. I need to spend a day in the sunshine. I needd it.
I bought nikki a bunch of presents and made her a bag of things she can do at home to occupy her since she can't leave. But I can't give it to her because whenever I try to go over there she won't answer. so it's sitting in the corner of my room making me depressed.