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i was just laying in bed trying to sleep and i had an epiphany.
i know i changed a lot this year, and its because when my grandma died it hit me so hard and i promised that i would try as hard as i could to be exactly like the perfect loved person she was. so thats what ive done. all year, trying to be perfect and beaming and soul soothing, and i realize how freakin fake that is. thats not who i am. its who i want to be but ive never been that way, ive always been miss controversial, miss uncensored, miss heart of gold but mouth of sailor. everyone knows perfection doesnt exist and you have to learn to accept flaws, and i think thats why all the perfectionists in the world are so hated. if you try to be perfect, youre being phony whether you know it or not. its not real.
the end.
i know i changed a lot this year, and its because when my grandma died it hit me so hard and i promised that i would try as hard as i could to be exactly like the perfect loved person she was. so thats what ive done. all year, trying to be perfect and beaming and soul soothing, and i realize how freakin fake that is. thats not who i am. its who i want to be but ive never been that way, ive always been miss controversial, miss uncensored, miss heart of gold but mouth of sailor. everyone knows perfection doesnt exist and you have to learn to accept flaws, and i think thats why all the perfectionists in the world are so hated. if you try to be perfect, youre being phony whether you know it or not. its not real.
the end.