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friday was an interesting night me and david traveled around
there was barnes and noble and much enjoyment
yesterday i didnt end up going to travis's
eneded up going to Kemper till about 1am
then me bob jason jud'e stopped at wendy's and ate
that place is mighty addicting
and today was meghan's birthday party
howie walked up to me twice, stared then walked away
i was rather confused
when he came by a 3rd time i asked him why he kept doing that and he said
"Do you have to go home tonight?"
"Yes"
"i wanted to make you some drinks"
"i can't have anything i have things to do tonight,"
"ok..." then he put on a pouty face and walked away
odd but meh
i used to love going to jud'es
it was somewhere different,
a different group of friends
a chance of enviorment that i enjoyed being round
and sometimes i really just never wanted to leave
but there are Jason, Bob, Jud'e, Bre, Tim, Howie and Jamie all living there
in a one bedroom apartment and its fucking crazy
i personally can't handle that many people in one household constantly
especially when there is no food/anything
plus they are all smokers and the smoke was fucking up my eyes yesterday
and the day befor i couldnt stop coughing
i love them all to death but i miss the days when there was only 4 people staying there
school is wearing on me
trig is killing me
i just can't seem to make anything in it stay in my head
which makes me really angry
because i understand it perfectly when i do it and then by the time the quiz/test rolls around i forget everything and gaaaah
sociology actually really interests me
i find the book rather interesting
but i can't stand tom's droning
he repeats the same thing over and over
like rephrasing a question
and then nods at us as if it was amazing statement that we must all sit back and reflect on
while he stands and strokes his chin, trying to find the little hair thats on it
bob's birthday is coming up this saturday and ive been trying to write him a card/letter to go along with his gift but everything i write seems silly. gosh this boy is making my head silly. sometimes when im with him i look at him and can't even feel, see, believe there is anyone else near us. i stopped putting myself down as much as i used to, he draws out the best in me. he makes me wanna talk about those things i like to bury. he's amazing in so many ways. he's someone i would go to a masquerade with and dance with. dating him is like walking through my dreams over and over again, he brings out those fairy tale moments ive longed for. for his birthday we're spending the whole day together. no matter how much i talk about him, there seems to always be pages more to talk about. he makes me so incredibly happy and i really want him to meet my closest friends like sam and viktor etc but i lack a car. gosh i didn't think feeling this safe and happy could happen.
enough of that.....
damn those times where he consumes my mind to the point where i need to write about him
but sadly my body dissapproves of being awake
i shall update more tomorrow
goodnight pretties.
there was barnes and noble and much enjoyment
yesterday i didnt end up going to travis's
eneded up going to Kemper till about 1am
then me bob jason jud'e stopped at wendy's and ate
that place is mighty addicting
and today was meghan's birthday party
howie walked up to me twice, stared then walked away
i was rather confused
when he came by a 3rd time i asked him why he kept doing that and he said
"Do you have to go home tonight?"
"Yes"
"i wanted to make you some drinks"
"i can't have anything i have things to do tonight,"
"ok..." then he put on a pouty face and walked away
odd but meh
i used to love going to jud'es
it was somewhere different,
a different group of friends
a chance of enviorment that i enjoyed being round
and sometimes i really just never wanted to leave
but there are Jason, Bob, Jud'e, Bre, Tim, Howie and Jamie all living there
in a one bedroom apartment and its fucking crazy
i personally can't handle that many people in one household constantly
especially when there is no food/anything
plus they are all smokers and the smoke was fucking up my eyes yesterday
and the day befor i couldnt stop coughing
i love them all to death but i miss the days when there was only 4 people staying there
school is wearing on me
trig is killing me
i just can't seem to make anything in it stay in my head
which makes me really angry
because i understand it perfectly when i do it and then by the time the quiz/test rolls around i forget everything and gaaaah
sociology actually really interests me
i find the book rather interesting
but i can't stand tom's droning
he repeats the same thing over and over
like rephrasing a question
and then nods at us as if it was amazing statement that we must all sit back and reflect on
while he stands and strokes his chin, trying to find the little hair thats on it
bob's birthday is coming up this saturday and ive been trying to write him a card/letter to go along with his gift but everything i write seems silly. gosh this boy is making my head silly. sometimes when im with him i look at him and can't even feel, see, believe there is anyone else near us. i stopped putting myself down as much as i used to, he draws out the best in me. he makes me wanna talk about those things i like to bury. he's amazing in so many ways. he's someone i would go to a masquerade with and dance with. dating him is like walking through my dreams over and over again, he brings out those fairy tale moments ive longed for. for his birthday we're spending the whole day together. no matter how much i talk about him, there seems to always be pages more to talk about. he makes me so incredibly happy and i really want him to meet my closest friends like sam and viktor etc but i lack a car. gosh i didn't think feeling this safe and happy could happen.
enough of that.....
damn those times where he consumes my mind to the point where i need to write about him
but sadly my body dissapproves of being awake
i shall update more tomorrow
goodnight pretties.