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Okay, my life has been super freaking busy since my last update and i'm gonna tell you all about it, some are very personal so please do not repat to anyone sle *P*
My diabetes has been kinda haywire a lot these days, some days I have low sugarts, some days I have really high ones. once, i had a 400 *eek* I guess I need to start taking a class on what to eat, how much and how often *lol* and then my stupid mother had a high blood sugar one night and took the pill i take and was taken to the hospital the next morning from not eating, It was scary, she's fine but it was still scary. and then 2 weeks later she was blacking out at work and a dropped a 100 + water thing on her foot and got third degree burns, she's fine now but her foot took a long time to heal.
I need my firneds these days, i have never told anybody this, EVER so do not tell anyone please? My grandma (My mom's) died back in January 2006 and after that, my mom started getting really depressed and cured it with medication, at first it wasn't that bad but then she started taking 2 at a time, sometime 3 at a time, it's scary and evertytime she gets them i'm worried, I never once thought my mom would turn out to be a drug addict, I just have all this pain buried because of it.
Anyway, i've been thinking a lot about my past relationships with those two guys that cheated on me and i've come to the decision that it's their fault, not mine, which i kbow is stupid to blame myself fro what they did but I did, for a really long time and i'm stopping. I saw both of them on Saturday, they've got new GF's and I can only say this, i feel sorry for them, because their gonna get hurt, like i did. and i
ve also been thinking about a missed love chance i had before i moved about 4 1/2 years ago, i had this major crush on this guy, jock of course but I thought he only said he liked me as a game cause he treated like crap for years till middle school and then all fo a suiddne he likes me, i don't know lol. But Everytime i think of him i get all these regretful feelings, like i missed out on something real and remarkable. Because the last day of school before we moved he was being kinda sweet and he touched my arm and well i don't know, am i stupid? am i retarded?
Anyway, i love Damon/elena & Ian/nina so i guess life is good afterall lol.
to My girls: Lala, Nat, Rita, Brenda, Kara, Cori, Dre, Laura, Eva, Sally, Steph, and everyone else at the De thread, ILY girls and meeting you has really changed my life, lots of love.
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Sara xoxo