Why is it so hard...
I can't sleep anymore...i would have never thought sleep can cause so much pain. I dreamt of you, everything was great, better than ever...i woke up with a smile. But then reality hit and my smile faded and agony overcame me. Its so horrible, i wish it was all a bad dream...and i would wake up in pain, but then realize everythings ok and nothing can be better...
I keep driving the nail deeper into my heart by thinking about everything thats not gonna happen anymore...even as i write this...i am suffering. I literally just woke up in fear...
I really thought this was going to be longlasting...and we were going to be strong and come through any problems...but im sorry i couldnt me the guy you hoped for...Once again, i have failed in my eyes...The purpose i sought to fulfill, was crushed.
I know I'll look back upon this and say "What was i thinking..."
But moments like these need to be recorded, or else ill never let anything out and i'll keep this all bottled up inside...
Love...yes i was in love....despite the heartbreak that ensues...theres nothing like actually enjoying life to the fullest...coming home and my parents asking why the hell i'm so happy...seeing the smile on your face as you approach me...and i still love you...maybe thats why it hurts so much.
It pains me to even think this but, you were beyond my expectations i sought for in a girl...i highly doubt anyone will come close to you...therefore i'll always have to settle for second best...like i always do.
Despite this sudden change of emotions, I have vowed to myself that I'll always be there for you. No Matter what...I cant say that it wont hurt when i even think of you, i cant imagine what i would feel if i saw you...
And on that note. I am Done...
-Steve-o
I keep driving the nail deeper into my heart by thinking about everything thats not gonna happen anymore...even as i write this...i am suffering. I literally just woke up in fear...
I really thought this was going to be longlasting...and we were going to be strong and come through any problems...but im sorry i couldnt me the guy you hoped for...Once again, i have failed in my eyes...The purpose i sought to fulfill, was crushed.
I know I'll look back upon this and say "What was i thinking..."
But moments like these need to be recorded, or else ill never let anything out and i'll keep this all bottled up inside...
Love...yes i was in love....despite the heartbreak that ensues...theres nothing like actually enjoying life to the fullest...coming home and my parents asking why the hell i'm so happy...seeing the smile on your face as you approach me...and i still love you...maybe thats why it hurts so much.
It pains me to even think this but, you were beyond my expectations i sought for in a girl...i highly doubt anyone will come close to you...therefore i'll always have to settle for second best...like i always do.
Despite this sudden change of emotions, I have vowed to myself that I'll always be there for you. No Matter what...I cant say that it wont hurt when i even think of you, i cant imagine what i would feel if i saw you...
And on that note. I am Done...
-Steve-o