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Britt: im guessin u got my mesage and want me to die and w/e
the_forbidden_one_666: no not really
Britt: is it right that i go thru with it?
the_forbidden_one_666: just curious as to how kyle made you realize you were a bad person, wut ur scared of and wut you mean by "i dont want to get too envolved"
Britt: kyle's made me realize that lying only makes u look like a horrible person. im scared to get too involved as in... i dont wanna get too much in love with someone
the_forbidden_one_666: why?
Britt: cause it freaks me and and makes me wanna run and leave
the_forbidden_one_666: comgrats you did just that
Britt: and do you think im proud?
the_forbidden_one_666: you sound lke it
Britt: actually no
the_forbidden_one_666: 1/2 the time i talk to you you make it sound like it had no effect on you at all
Britt: I SHOW NO EMOTION! I HIDE WHAT I FEEL!
the_forbidden_one_666: maybe you should open up a little more
Britt: I DONT WANNA
Britt: GO TO MYSPACE.COM/UNFORGIVEN_SOUL666
Britt: CHECK OUT MY NEW PIC
the_forbidden_one_666: close the all caps
Britt: ok
Britt: ???
Britt: brb goin to check mail
the_forbidden_one_666: to be honest brittaney ive lost all emotion towards you, you want to throw away somethign good then so be it
Britt: now ur ebin an ass
the_forbidden_one_666: how do you expect me to act?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:17:26 PM): i dont kno
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:18:00 PM): how would you act?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:20:47 PM): i dont know
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:22:15 PM): you would be pissed of, hurt,confused, you wouldnt cry every night knowing the one person you thought would be with you for the rest of ur life betrayed you in more ways than one?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:24:00 PM): uooarently dont know much about why i tries to kill myself when i was 15
Britt (11/21/2005 3:24:28 PM): you dont kno what it is to truely hurt
Britt (11/21/2005 3:24:43 PM): if u only knew
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:24:44 PM): oh beleieve me yes i do
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:24:57 PM): ok if i dont knoe why dont you explain it to me
Britt (11/21/2005 3:25:28 PM): because it's the only thing that makes me weak and tears me apart
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:26:03 PM): well you say idk wut its like to truely hurt, so then i guess my reasons for beng how i fele are wrong
Britt (11/21/2005 3:28:36 PM): you dont know what its like to be beetrayed by the one person you trust and would die. for. the only person i had to turn to. the only person i was ever enguaged to. he raped me travis! HE FUCKING RAPED ME! HE'S THE REASON I FUCKING HATE THE THOUGHT OF BEING WITH ANOTHER GUY!
Britt (11/21/2005 3:29:35 PM): HE'S THE REASON IM SCARED TO BE WITH ANOTHER. EVERYTIME I LOOK IN THE MIRROR
Britt (11/21/2005 3:29:41 PM): I HAVE A
Britt (11/21/2005 3:30:00 PM): AN EVERYDAY REMINDER. AND IMAKES ME WANNA DIE
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:30:10 PM): is that wut you were scared of?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:30:53 PM): I'VE BEEN BEAT, RAPED, AND TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF. BUT NOT ANYMORE
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:31:09 PM): is that why you left me?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:31:34 PM): it's wy i've left every guy i've been with since.
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:31:49 PM): so then why are you with aaron?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:32:12 PM): honestly im even scared of him
Britt (11/21/2005 3:32:39 PM): every morning i ve to put on a fake ass smile just so no one knows what i have to deal with
Britt (11/21/2005 3:32:44 PM):
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:33:33 PM): brittany ive been beaten almost to the point of death, and this is while i was gonig through cancer, why the fuck would i want to put you through the same shit ive been through? why do you think i dont like hurting anyone?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:33:39 PM): and my bestfriend shawn.. he's not here for reasons. he left to keep himself safe.
Britt (11/21/2005 3:33:58 PM): why do you think i am the way i am
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:35:09 PM): you have no reason to be scared of me britt, my mother went throguh the same shit you did IN FUCKNIG FRONT OF ME! ive have been blamed and jumped for accusation of raping a chick ( and i didnt) i know wut its like
Britt (11/21/2005 3:36:13 PM): te only guy that has touched me since the incident and hasnt scared me is kyle. when im with him i feel like the worlds melted away and my past n longer exists.
Britt (11/21/2005 3:36:37 PM): u know what its like to be acused. not whatit's like to have it happen and almost get killed
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:37:02 PM): ive been beaten almost to the point of death, and this is while i was gonig through cancer
Britt (11/21/2005 3:37:17 PM): if it wasnt or shawn i wuldnt b here
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:37:56 PM): so wut i didnt make you feel happy? i didnt makeyou feel loved?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:38:10 PM): no one has
Britt (11/21/2005 3:38:17 PM): not in 2 years
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:38:21 PM): except kyle
Britt (11/21/2005 3:38:31 PM): im neven sure
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:38:47 PM): you say you give everyone a second chance
Britt (11/21/2005 3:40:14 PM): ..... if it wasnt for shawn u wuldnt know me no one wuld. if it werent for him i wuldnt be here now. and sometimes i wish he wuld have never walked in.
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:40:54 PM): wut made you dcide to leave me?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:41:03 PM): i was scared
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:41:09 PM): of wut?
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:41:22 PM): you know i would NEVER do anything you hurt you
Britt (11/21/2005 3:41:25 PM): you kno what
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:42:17 PM): you know for a fucknig fact id never do anythig like that ive been through that shit myself why do you think i act the way i do? that last thing i want to do is hurt my most prized possesion
Britt (11/21/2005 3:42:36 PM): LOOK YOU DONT UNDERSTAND
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:42:50 PM): then explain it so i do
Britt (11/21/2005 3:43:38 PM): fuck you! im not going to make myself cry just to satisfy you
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:44:39 PM): ur not satisfying anybody yousay i dont understand, the only thing i dont understand is why you left me? "cuz ur scared" ok you know i wouldnt do anything liek that or to that effect so wut is there to be scared of?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:45:36 PM): fuck it.
Britt (11/21/2005 3:45:44 PM): just drop the subject
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:46:01 PM): w/e you dont seem to care so why bother carrying on
Britt (11/21/2005 3:46:30 PM): ur being a prick and making me remember things i dont ever wanna fuckin think about
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:47:47 PM): i never said i wanted you to all i wanted was an answer as to why you acting like this? why dont you want to be with me? why dont you even like me wut makes you not want me? why did you lie?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:48:39 PM): im confuces, hurt, depressed, upset, i do want you........
Britt (11/21/2005 3:49:02 PM): but i cant be with you
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:49:08 PM): why?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:49:16 PM): because it hurts
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:49:23 PM): how does it hurt?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:49:31 PM): im with someone
Britt (11/21/2005 3:49:48 PM): it hurts to e so far away...
Britt (11/21/2005 3:49:59 PM): im trying to deal with my pain. its not easy
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:50:33 PM): brittany i almost had enough money to get a tciket out there and you told me you didnt want to be with me anymore, even worse you lied about it
Britt (11/21/2005 3:50:52 PM): <<< lookays aw
Britt (11/21/2005 3:51:01 PM): <<< looks down and away
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:51:10 PM): yea
Britt (11/21/2005 3:51:17 PM): wha?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:51:31 PM): i be back
Britt (11/21/2005 3:55:38 PM): ???
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:56:00 PM): ?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:56:05 PM): what?
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:56:13 PM): nothing
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:58:14 PM): you break up with me for him but you wont do the same to him becasue youll hurt him, did you stop to think how bad itd hurt me?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:58:57 PM): ...
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:59:17 PM): did you even think at all?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:59:36 PM): do you ever stop to think about what i have to live with everyday
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:00:08 PM): you should ask urself the same question
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:00:30 PM): im in the basmenet of a friends house if i get thrown out im on the streets
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:00:39 PM): steve tried killing himself last night
Britt (11/21/2005 4:00:44 PM): ...
Britt (11/21/2005 4:00:47 PM): y?
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:00:50 PM): i almost got hrown out two ays ago
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:01:10 PM): look at how much strees hes gonig throough
Britt (11/21/2005 4:01:18 PM): y he try n kil himslf
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:01:55 PM): his dad died, his aunt is triyng t oscrew him out of the house, evdo destroyed the basement, and tehres a lot more going on
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:02:10 PM): he has to go to court to get his house in his name
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:02:17 PM): he almost lost his job
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:02:33 PM): he was in a car accident
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:02:40 PM): 3 of them for that matter
Britt (11/21/2005 4:03:04 PM): ...
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:03:23 PM): and im trying t ohelp him out you dont think im gonig through shit? look at wuts gnoing on around me i gotta worry about my mother and steve at the ame time
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:03:55 PM): do you realize how bad i ned someone rigt now?
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:04:12 PM): and with the shit you pulled didnt exactly help
Britt (11/21/2005 4:04:30 PM): do u realize how often i wake up and wish i was dead
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:04:55 PM): ive done the same thing brittany
Britt (11/21/2005 4:05:17 PM):
Britt (11/21/2005 4:05:24 PM): *looks away*
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:05:46 PM): when you did that shit i wanted to kill myself then and there fucking i have urges to cut myself
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:05:58 PM): and it is getting harder and harder to fight the urge
Britt (11/21/2005 4:06:02 PM): ...
Britt (11/21/2005 4:06:56 PM): well u know what. i have permanan scare from it. i have scares from attempts at suicide
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:07:26 PM): and i dont?
Britt (11/21/2005 4:07:47 PM): i cried my fucking eyes out to kyle because i am so fucking scared
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:08:38 PM): you have nothnig to be scared of
Britt (11/21/2005 4:08:58 PM): u dont know w hat its like to hide because the one person
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:09:10 PM): yea i do
Britt (11/21/2005 4:09:17 PM): that has hurt u beyond repair still calls you and follows u around town
Britt (11/21/2005 4:10:24 PM): it's not only the fact that i have to look at scares he's left, but i have to see his fucking face
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:10:49 PM): isthat why you eleft me? because you were scared of him?
Britt (11/21/2005 4:11:02 PM): him andvryother guy
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:12:01 PM): you know wut kind of guy i am brittany, you KNOW i would do everything in my power to protect you i would die for you, fuck id crawl on my fucking sxtomach through the 7th layer of hell for you
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:12:24 PM): when we were together i fel on top of the world i wouldnt sht up aboutyou
Britt (11/21/2005 4:12:40 PM): .....
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:12:53 PM): i quit smoking weed as much as i did becasue i was haapy i was with you
Britt (11/21/2005 4:13:05 PM): hahaha!
Britt (11/21/2005 4:13:17 PM): bull shit
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:13:39 PM): fin dont beleive me but i did
Britt (11/21/2005 4:13:59 PM): i wanna shoot myself
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:14:17 PM): you know how i feel
Britt (11/21/2005 4:14:52 PM):
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:15:10 PM): i got wasted the other night so i wouldnt have to think about this shit
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:15:26 PM): i wanna be fucked up everyday now
Britt (11/21/2005 4:15:33 PM):
Britt (11/21/2005 4:16:28 PM):
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:16:46 PM): wut?
Britt (11/21/2005 4:16:54 PM): nuffin
Britt (11/21/2005 4:18:05 PM): cont worry about me. im just going to bocome an
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:18:22 PM): an wut?
Britt (11/21/2005 4:18:34 PM): illl just become another pathetic druggie
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:18:50 PM): im already there
Britt (11/21/2005 4:18:57 PM): im on my way
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:19:29 PM): has anything ive said gotten through?
Britt (11/21/2005 4:19:47 PM): .......
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:20:44 PM): atleast you have someone to help keep ur spirit alive, im trying t okeep steves and my moms up and no ones helpngi me
Britt (11/21/2005 4:21:27 PM): u learn nothing if u cant do things for urself
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:21:48 PM): and you get nowhere if you dont ask for help
Britt (11/21/2005 4:21:59 PM): i dont need help
Britt (11/21/2005 4:22:08 PM): i need a 45
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:23:42 PM): im not trynig to make you feel like shit brittany, im trying to make you think about the shit you did, im trying to make you realize ur mistakes and where you went wrong im trying to teach you nd make it to where you dont make the same mistake again but if youre gonig t obe stubburn then theres n point in me even trying
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:24:43 PM): every girl ivebeen with has done the same thing to me as you did, and ur teh only one im willing to give a second chance to does that not mean anything to you at all?
Britt (11/21/2005 4:25:08 PM): ... maby it does
Britt (11/21/2005 4:25:15 PM): but ive already told you
Britt (11/21/2005 4:25:20 PM): im with...someone
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:25:34 PM): thne im wasting my time
Britt (11/21/2005 4:25:56 PM): good bye ... forever...
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:26:03 PM): w/e
am i wrong by any means? can anybody explain or translate this shit?
the_forbidden_one_666: no not really
Britt: is it right that i go thru with it?
the_forbidden_one_666: just curious as to how kyle made you realize you were a bad person, wut ur scared of and wut you mean by "i dont want to get too envolved"
Britt: kyle's made me realize that lying only makes u look like a horrible person. im scared to get too involved as in... i dont wanna get too much in love with someone
the_forbidden_one_666: why?
Britt: cause it freaks me and and makes me wanna run and leave
the_forbidden_one_666: comgrats you did just that
Britt: and do you think im proud?
the_forbidden_one_666: you sound lke it
Britt: actually no
the_forbidden_one_666: 1/2 the time i talk to you you make it sound like it had no effect on you at all
Britt: I SHOW NO EMOTION! I HIDE WHAT I FEEL!
the_forbidden_one_666: maybe you should open up a little more
Britt: I DONT WANNA
Britt: GO TO MYSPACE.COM/UNFORGIVEN_SOUL666
Britt: CHECK OUT MY NEW PIC
the_forbidden_one_666: close the all caps
Britt: ok
Britt: ???
Britt: brb goin to check mail
the_forbidden_one_666: to be honest brittaney ive lost all emotion towards you, you want to throw away somethign good then so be it
Britt: now ur ebin an ass
the_forbidden_one_666: how do you expect me to act?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:17:26 PM): i dont kno
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:18:00 PM): how would you act?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:20:47 PM): i dont know
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:22:15 PM): you would be pissed of, hurt,confused, you wouldnt cry every night knowing the one person you thought would be with you for the rest of ur life betrayed you in more ways than one?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:24:00 PM): uooarently dont know much about why i tries to kill myself when i was 15
Britt (11/21/2005 3:24:28 PM): you dont kno what it is to truely hurt
Britt (11/21/2005 3:24:43 PM): if u only knew
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:24:44 PM): oh beleieve me yes i do
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:24:57 PM): ok if i dont knoe why dont you explain it to me
Britt (11/21/2005 3:25:28 PM): because it's the only thing that makes me weak and tears me apart
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:26:03 PM): well you say idk wut its like to truely hurt, so then i guess my reasons for beng how i fele are wrong
Britt (11/21/2005 3:28:36 PM): you dont know what its like to be beetrayed by the one person you trust and would die. for. the only person i had to turn to. the only person i was ever enguaged to. he raped me travis! HE FUCKING RAPED ME! HE'S THE REASON I FUCKING HATE THE THOUGHT OF BEING WITH ANOTHER GUY!
Britt (11/21/2005 3:29:35 PM): HE'S THE REASON IM SCARED TO BE WITH ANOTHER. EVERYTIME I LOOK IN THE MIRROR
Britt (11/21/2005 3:29:41 PM): I HAVE A
Britt (11/21/2005 3:30:00 PM): AN EVERYDAY REMINDER. AND IMAKES ME WANNA DIE
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:30:10 PM): is that wut you were scared of?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:30:53 PM): I'VE BEEN BEAT, RAPED, AND TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF. BUT NOT ANYMORE
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:31:09 PM): is that why you left me?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:31:34 PM): it's wy i've left every guy i've been with since.
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:31:49 PM): so then why are you with aaron?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:32:12 PM): honestly im even scared of him
Britt (11/21/2005 3:32:39 PM): every morning i ve to put on a fake ass smile just so no one knows what i have to deal with
Britt (11/21/2005 3:32:44 PM):
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:33:33 PM): brittany ive been beaten almost to the point of death, and this is while i was gonig through cancer, why the fuck would i want to put you through the same shit ive been through? why do you think i dont like hurting anyone?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:33:39 PM): and my bestfriend shawn.. he's not here for reasons. he left to keep himself safe.
Britt (11/21/2005 3:33:58 PM): why do you think i am the way i am
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:35:09 PM): you have no reason to be scared of me britt, my mother went throguh the same shit you did IN FUCKNIG FRONT OF ME! ive have been blamed and jumped for accusation of raping a chick ( and i didnt) i know wut its like
Britt (11/21/2005 3:36:13 PM): te only guy that has touched me since the incident and hasnt scared me is kyle. when im with him i feel like the worlds melted away and my past n longer exists.
Britt (11/21/2005 3:36:37 PM): u know what its like to be acused. not whatit's like to have it happen and almost get killed
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:37:02 PM): ive been beaten almost to the point of death, and this is while i was gonig through cancer
Britt (11/21/2005 3:37:17 PM): if it wasnt or shawn i wuldnt b here
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:37:56 PM): so wut i didnt make you feel happy? i didnt makeyou feel loved?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:38:10 PM): no one has
Britt (11/21/2005 3:38:17 PM): not in 2 years
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:38:21 PM): except kyle
Britt (11/21/2005 3:38:31 PM): im neven sure
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:38:47 PM): you say you give everyone a second chance
Britt (11/21/2005 3:40:14 PM): ..... if it wasnt for shawn u wuldnt know me no one wuld. if it werent for him i wuldnt be here now. and sometimes i wish he wuld have never walked in.
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:40:54 PM): wut made you dcide to leave me?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:41:03 PM): i was scared
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:41:09 PM): of wut?
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:41:22 PM): you know i would NEVER do anything you hurt you
Britt (11/21/2005 3:41:25 PM): you kno what
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:42:17 PM): you know for a fucknig fact id never do anythig like that ive been through that shit myself why do you think i act the way i do? that last thing i want to do is hurt my most prized possesion
Britt (11/21/2005 3:42:36 PM): LOOK YOU DONT UNDERSTAND
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:42:50 PM): then explain it so i do
Britt (11/21/2005 3:43:38 PM): fuck you! im not going to make myself cry just to satisfy you
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:44:39 PM): ur not satisfying anybody yousay i dont understand, the only thing i dont understand is why you left me? "cuz ur scared" ok you know i wouldnt do anything liek that or to that effect so wut is there to be scared of?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:45:36 PM): fuck it.
Britt (11/21/2005 3:45:44 PM): just drop the subject
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:46:01 PM): w/e you dont seem to care so why bother carrying on
Britt (11/21/2005 3:46:30 PM): ur being a prick and making me remember things i dont ever wanna fuckin think about
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:47:47 PM): i never said i wanted you to all i wanted was an answer as to why you acting like this? why dont you want to be with me? why dont you even like me wut makes you not want me? why did you lie?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:48:39 PM): im confuces, hurt, depressed, upset, i do want you........
Britt (11/21/2005 3:49:02 PM): but i cant be with you
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:49:08 PM): why?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:49:16 PM): because it hurts
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:49:23 PM): how does it hurt?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:49:31 PM): im with someone
Britt (11/21/2005 3:49:48 PM): it hurts to e so far away...
Britt (11/21/2005 3:49:59 PM): im trying to deal with my pain. its not easy
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:50:33 PM): brittany i almost had enough money to get a tciket out there and you told me you didnt want to be with me anymore, even worse you lied about it
Britt (11/21/2005 3:50:52 PM): <<< lookays aw
Britt (11/21/2005 3:51:01 PM): <<< looks down and away
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:51:10 PM): yea
Britt (11/21/2005 3:51:17 PM): wha?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:51:31 PM): i be back
Britt (11/21/2005 3:55:38 PM): ???
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:56:00 PM): ?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:56:05 PM): what?
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:56:13 PM): nothing
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:58:14 PM): you break up with me for him but you wont do the same to him becasue youll hurt him, did you stop to think how bad itd hurt me?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:58:57 PM): ...
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 3:59:17 PM): did you even think at all?
Britt (11/21/2005 3:59:36 PM): do you ever stop to think about what i have to live with everyday
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:00:08 PM): you should ask urself the same question
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:00:30 PM): im in the basmenet of a friends house if i get thrown out im on the streets
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:00:39 PM): steve tried killing himself last night
Britt (11/21/2005 4:00:44 PM): ...
Britt (11/21/2005 4:00:47 PM): y?
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:00:50 PM): i almost got hrown out two ays ago
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:01:10 PM): look at how much strees hes gonig throough
Britt (11/21/2005 4:01:18 PM): y he try n kil himslf
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:01:55 PM): his dad died, his aunt is triyng t oscrew him out of the house, evdo destroyed the basement, and tehres a lot more going on
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:02:10 PM): he has to go to court to get his house in his name
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:02:17 PM): he almost lost his job
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:02:33 PM): he was in a car accident
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:02:40 PM): 3 of them for that matter
Britt (11/21/2005 4:03:04 PM): ...
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:03:23 PM): and im trying t ohelp him out you dont think im gonig through shit? look at wuts gnoing on around me i gotta worry about my mother and steve at the ame time
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:03:55 PM): do you realize how bad i ned someone rigt now?
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:04:12 PM): and with the shit you pulled didnt exactly help
Britt (11/21/2005 4:04:30 PM): do u realize how often i wake up and wish i was dead
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:04:55 PM): ive done the same thing brittany
Britt (11/21/2005 4:05:17 PM):
Britt (11/21/2005 4:05:24 PM): *looks away*
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:05:46 PM): when you did that shit i wanted to kill myself then and there fucking i have urges to cut myself
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:05:58 PM): and it is getting harder and harder to fight the urge
Britt (11/21/2005 4:06:02 PM): ...
Britt (11/21/2005 4:06:56 PM): well u know what. i have permanan scare from it. i have scares from attempts at suicide
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:07:26 PM): and i dont?
Britt (11/21/2005 4:07:47 PM): i cried my fucking eyes out to kyle because i am so fucking scared
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:08:38 PM): you have nothnig to be scared of
Britt (11/21/2005 4:08:58 PM): u dont know w hat its like to hide because the one person
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:09:10 PM): yea i do
Britt (11/21/2005 4:09:17 PM): that has hurt u beyond repair still calls you and follows u around town
Britt (11/21/2005 4:10:24 PM): it's not only the fact that i have to look at scares he's left, but i have to see his fucking face
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:10:49 PM): isthat why you eleft me? because you were scared of him?
Britt (11/21/2005 4:11:02 PM): him andvryother guy
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:12:01 PM): you know wut kind of guy i am brittany, you KNOW i would do everything in my power to protect you i would die for you, fuck id crawl on my fucking sxtomach through the 7th layer of hell for you
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:12:24 PM): when we were together i fel on top of the world i wouldnt sht up aboutyou
Britt (11/21/2005 4:12:40 PM): .....
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:12:53 PM): i quit smoking weed as much as i did becasue i was haapy i was with you
Britt (11/21/2005 4:13:05 PM): hahaha!
Britt (11/21/2005 4:13:17 PM): bull shit
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:13:39 PM): fin dont beleive me but i did
Britt (11/21/2005 4:13:59 PM): i wanna shoot myself
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:14:17 PM): you know how i feel
Britt (11/21/2005 4:14:52 PM):
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:15:10 PM): i got wasted the other night so i wouldnt have to think about this shit
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:15:26 PM): i wanna be fucked up everyday now
Britt (11/21/2005 4:15:33 PM):
Britt (11/21/2005 4:16:28 PM):
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:16:46 PM): wut?
Britt (11/21/2005 4:16:54 PM): nuffin
Britt (11/21/2005 4:18:05 PM): cont worry about me. im just going to bocome an
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:18:22 PM): an wut?
Britt (11/21/2005 4:18:34 PM): illl just become another pathetic druggie
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:18:50 PM): im already there
Britt (11/21/2005 4:18:57 PM): im on my way
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:19:29 PM): has anything ive said gotten through?
Britt (11/21/2005 4:19:47 PM): .......
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:20:44 PM): atleast you have someone to help keep ur spirit alive, im trying t okeep steves and my moms up and no ones helpngi me
Britt (11/21/2005 4:21:27 PM): u learn nothing if u cant do things for urself
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:21:48 PM): and you get nowhere if you dont ask for help
Britt (11/21/2005 4:21:59 PM): i dont need help
Britt (11/21/2005 4:22:08 PM): i need a 45
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:23:42 PM): im not trynig to make you feel like shit brittany, im trying to make you think about the shit you did, im trying to make you realize ur mistakes and where you went wrong im trying to teach you nd make it to where you dont make the same mistake again but if youre gonig t obe stubburn then theres n point in me even trying
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:24:43 PM): every girl ivebeen with has done the same thing to me as you did, and ur teh only one im willing to give a second chance to does that not mean anything to you at all?
Britt (11/21/2005 4:25:08 PM): ... maby it does
Britt (11/21/2005 4:25:15 PM): but ive already told you
Britt (11/21/2005 4:25:20 PM): im with...someone
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:25:34 PM): thne im wasting my time
Britt (11/21/2005 4:25:56 PM): good bye ... forever...
the_forbidden_one_666 (11/21/2005 4:26:03 PM): w/e
am i wrong by any means? can anybody explain or translate this shit?