the sylvia curse...
im in 100% shock for the second time in what 2 months now
wow
im sad, and im shocked, and im just in awe
i dont think i should ever have another boyfriend
*doubt many people will understand, but a few will*
you know what- i dont know anymore
i cant just put on this stupid happy face
i know if i go home tonight ill cry b/c im sure ill see rahul
and he'll make me feel miserable..not intentionally, but still
and i dotn really feel like wasting tissues
i dont get how 3 years can change a perosn so entirely much. i feel like a 100% differnet person than i was in high school. i guess its inevitable (right word??) but i really feel like im confused
maybe i should soulsearch lol
health psych was depressing today. although im supposed to live to be 87, which probably wont happen
evolution is alwyass depressing
i dont know when to come home, i guess i shoudl go home tonight- if i stay here ill just sit alone lol which could be okay but i think ill just leave around 7ish and drive the lovely 3 hours alone singing/crying lol...jk?
i dont get how senses can be so emotional- i mean i can smell boys and thnk about ryan or chuckie, i can hear songs and think about jordan, and no matter what happened in the past--they make me so sad--i mean wtf its a scent and its a song-how does that make my feelings change. i guess psychology kind of expalins that but no it doesnt damn it! it doesnt explain it well enough, b/c no matter what i do i will never forget those things ever
and now i will leave you w/one of those damn songs that just came on...
rrg.
Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.
....
And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang