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I'm feeling overwhelmed at the moment...
...after two weeks in our new house it's really beginning to feel like home and things are beginning to settle down. On the other hand packing my most important possessions into far too many cardboard boxes and then later arranging said possessions to fit into my new room most appropriately has caused a little self-reflection and a large amount of realignment.
Understanding what is important to me and why has lead to me re-evaluating other important things in my life - things that aren't possessions. I came to understand that there are a lot of things I don't appreciate and work hard enough at, but other things that I just bobble along with, apparently not achieving full potential.
So this lead me to wonder how I could find the best results from the areas that feel empty and shallow. I made some strategic suggestions, but to little avail. Now I don't know where to go with it. I don't know whether to push really hard at the risk of breaking the brittle subject matter, or gently nudge in the right direction, although if I push too gently nothing will ever move.
Besides this there are all sorts of parallels that I find myself drawing Romantic comparisons to... Parallels that are unrealistic, dreamy and therefore insubstantial. But despite knowing this I draw these lines in my head and can't help but give some validation to them. On a logical level this is such a wrong thing to do, but on an instinctual level it makes so much sense.
I've had a few philosophical debates with people about whether it's more beneficial to give value to logic or to instinct... I always find that deep down inside I'm drawn to instinct. However, this terrifies me. I'm using the unscientific approach to confirm an unscientific conclusion. It's ridiculous... as is life.
Where am I going with this? I wish I knew. There're a lot of things I need to weigh up at the moment. Things that I know seem insignificant and unimportant to daily living. Despite this I know that if I don't face them they will niggle away inside of me and slowly destroy me.
P.S. This is nowhere near as heavy as it sounds.
...after two weeks in our new house it's really beginning to feel like home and things are beginning to settle down. On the other hand packing my most important possessions into far too many cardboard boxes and then later arranging said possessions to fit into my new room most appropriately has caused a little self-reflection and a large amount of realignment.
Understanding what is important to me and why has lead to me re-evaluating other important things in my life - things that aren't possessions. I came to understand that there are a lot of things I don't appreciate and work hard enough at, but other things that I just bobble along with, apparently not achieving full potential.
So this lead me to wonder how I could find the best results from the areas that feel empty and shallow. I made some strategic suggestions, but to little avail. Now I don't know where to go with it. I don't know whether to push really hard at the risk of breaking the brittle subject matter, or gently nudge in the right direction, although if I push too gently nothing will ever move.
Besides this there are all sorts of parallels that I find myself drawing Romantic comparisons to... Parallels that are unrealistic, dreamy and therefore insubstantial. But despite knowing this I draw these lines in my head and can't help but give some validation to them. On a logical level this is such a wrong thing to do, but on an instinctual level it makes so much sense.
I've had a few philosophical debates with people about whether it's more beneficial to give value to logic or to instinct... I always find that deep down inside I'm drawn to instinct. However, this terrifies me. I'm using the unscientific approach to confirm an unscientific conclusion. It's ridiculous... as is life.
Where am I going with this? I wish I knew. There're a lot of things I need to weigh up at the moment. Things that I know seem insignificant and unimportant to daily living. Despite this I know that if I don't face them they will niggle away inside of me and slowly destroy me.
P.S. This is nowhere near as heavy as it sounds.