urgh
really, this relationship may perhaps have gotten to be to much, i don't want love, or even monogamy, but the thought of him using his hands on another is really hard. and i can't admit it to him, or that many others. i don't want to be the only one i just want to be the most important one, i want to be the best one, and i might be, but i need that to be vocalized more often than never.
i suck at this stuff, maybe i would be better off if it ended, but then even though i wouldn't be jealous, urgh that word is hard to admit, i would be lonely and lacking a real means to get my aggression out. why is he so good?
i know that this is because my blood is near but i wonder if the thought will still linger once i pass through that wave. i hope not.
i suck at this stuff, maybe i would be better off if it ended, but then even though i wouldn't be jealous, urgh that word is hard to admit, i would be lonely and lacking a real means to get my aggression out. why is he so good?
i know that this is because my blood is near but i wonder if the thought will still linger once i pass through that wave. i hope not.