some crap
well i'm out of here in a week. next friday i'm moving all my shit out and then having a huge party on Saturday. you are all invited to come over and be crazy and celebrate me getting out of this hell hole.
i'm so excited to be back home. this never truely felt like home to me... more so a year long vacation.
true, it's going to be weird not having a place downtown to just "run home for a second". and its going to be weird crashing at Candaces and Clares all the time... but I kind of liked doing that better anyways.
im going to be away from a lot of things and a lot of friends, and this will be hard. candace and i were nearly in tears about it, but when it comes down to it, i think it will be better in a lot of ways. i still plan on coming down here every weekend to hang out, and now i'll actually have money to DO things instead of mooching off others in order to go to bars. and i think i will appreciate it more here when i don't live here.. that's the way it used to be.
and it won't be so sad living there. I have Eric, Hillary, Angie, Rach, ERIN FUCKING D WILL BE HOME, dave and katie if we ever talk again, ect ect. it won't be so bad at all.. i will save 60 dollars a week on gas and that alone is pushing me really hard to leave here.
but i really am excited to be with my mom again. i feel safe with her.
it will feel so nice after a days work and coming home to her nice clean and comfy house.
it will be nice to always have someone there to talk to.
it will be nice to be on the water again.
i'm just really excited.
about a lot of things.
I like where i am right now, i do. i think i finally have found my spot in life again.
i have a great group of friends that i think are the last ones i'll have. i know crews come and go, but something tells me these kids are here until the end.
i have a wonderful boyfriend that makes me happier than i've ever felt before.. he does some crazy things to me. i didnt know it was humanly possible to share the things that we have shared thus far, and its just getting better. i am nothing but optimistic about us and i have a feeling that this, too, may be the last time i'll feel like this with anybody.
There are flaws here and there to everything, but that's normal. and nothing too extreme as to where i can't beat it.
but over all... this is where i want to be.
i'm so excited to be back home. this never truely felt like home to me... more so a year long vacation.
true, it's going to be weird not having a place downtown to just "run home for a second". and its going to be weird crashing at Candaces and Clares all the time... but I kind of liked doing that better anyways.
im going to be away from a lot of things and a lot of friends, and this will be hard. candace and i were nearly in tears about it, but when it comes down to it, i think it will be better in a lot of ways. i still plan on coming down here every weekend to hang out, and now i'll actually have money to DO things instead of mooching off others in order to go to bars. and i think i will appreciate it more here when i don't live here.. that's the way it used to be.
and it won't be so sad living there. I have Eric, Hillary, Angie, Rach, ERIN FUCKING D WILL BE HOME, dave and katie if we ever talk again, ect ect. it won't be so bad at all.. i will save 60 dollars a week on gas and that alone is pushing me really hard to leave here.
but i really am excited to be with my mom again. i feel safe with her.
it will feel so nice after a days work and coming home to her nice clean and comfy house.
it will be nice to always have someone there to talk to.
it will be nice to be on the water again.
i'm just really excited.
about a lot of things.
I like where i am right now, i do. i think i finally have found my spot in life again.
i have a great group of friends that i think are the last ones i'll have. i know crews come and go, but something tells me these kids are here until the end.
i have a wonderful boyfriend that makes me happier than i've ever felt before.. he does some crazy things to me. i didnt know it was humanly possible to share the things that we have shared thus far, and its just getting better. i am nothing but optimistic about us and i have a feeling that this, too, may be the last time i'll feel like this with anybody.
There are flaws here and there to everything, but that's normal. and nothing too extreme as to where i can't beat it.
but over all... this is where i want to be.