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I am so confused. I love him. I know that i do. Its just that our relationship has been moving so fast. A week ago he would not even have been interested in talking about marriage. And now he wants to get married. To me. I am afraid that I will agree just because I want to be loved. I want the security of marriage. I want to be content and secure. I want someone to love, and someone to love me. My mom is going to have a stinking cow when she finds out. I cant believe it has only been two weeks, It feels like it has been so much longer than just two weeks. CRAZY!! i JUST NEED TO TAKE THINGS SLOW. And I really do like him. I love him. I do. I love everything about him. We are so good for eachother. and only time will tell, so I just need to take things slow. Just let things happen as they will. I need to get into God and get into his word more often. Its as though I have abandoned him. As though I dont care what he has for me anymore. But I do. I do care for God. Without him I am nothing. I need him, want him, he will be first in my life. I just need to remember that. Jesus is first. Is, will be, will always be. Jesus. My savior my God. I love him. Lord, please show me your will in all of this. Please show me what you desire. That you love me. Amen