I think this is what she wanted.

[slimcharlie23]

Alright so ive been beating myself up over this whole Melanie thing. Last night I went to this party off of Stassney and who is the first person i see when I walk in the door...Ray Lane...I made up with him and everything we talked for a long time about everything. Im glad we did. But ya, ive been beating myself up about this Melanie thing and just realized that she doesnt care about me. And since she doesnt care about me, why should I care about her? She has never once looked at what I wanted...I get it now. Anyways, ive been trying to get to know this girl at my school who is really cool. Its hard because she doesnt have AIM...and never answers her cell. I study with her sometimes or at least attempt to. I love the feeling you get a the beginning of a relationship where you are are jittery and what not. There is also veronica whom ive been seeing for a long time...i kind of put a halt on things for a few days but the realized that she is much better for me than melanie ever was...i just didnt believe it until my meeting with melanie and my counsler. wow all I have to say about that meeting is I thought I knew Melanie and I thought she was my best friend...but what she said in there...lets just say I dont know her and she isnt my friend. I wish things could have worked out differently but everything happens for a reason, She is who she is and does what she does for a reason, I think its because God doesnt want me with her anymore...he wants me to be happy and knows I cant with her. Everything reminds me of her but I think it makes me happy now because I think of all the good times we had. It makes things easier for me. I hope that if she reads this she realizes what she has lost and knowing that she will never get back with me...im falling more and more out of love with her everyday...i cant wait to move into my new house and get a new car...ill be a chick magnet...Things are going great for me...I still get a little depressed but ive come to grips with my situation and am staring it in the eyes. I realized that im not over her, i still get depressed about her, its apart of the healing process. Its what you gotta do to get over someone. I cant be too mad about this because it just gets better from here on out. I will have the greatest girlfriend in the world in a few months and I know it...Kim might be coming back to Austin which would be so awesome...and ive been getting to know some people and I like them a lot...they are lots of fun, very pretty...its just nice. Im glad things worked out the way they did because otherwise i probably would have been miserable with her...and believe it or not, she will never be happy again, and when i mean happy...i mean complete...cause i will never talk to her again. she texts me and says hey...expecting me to talk to her after the way she treated me...dont worry melanie, im not going to talk to you ever again, just move on...anyways its church time...i switched churches because of her.
The end
Charlie