Hit me home, beat me down. Smash me right into the ground...
My subject really has nothing to do with my post or how I feel. Although it is a good reflection on how I feel the customers are coming in today. I hope no one from my job reads this but honestly I don't know how much more of this business I can take. This of course seems like a common theme in my entries, complain about work, complain about being depressed, write about what I'm reading, then disappear for a few months / years. Although it's interesting, since coming back here the waters of live journal seem to have calmed down quite a bit. I'm not complaining, just occasionally reading back entries from myself and friends.
At any rate, the real meat and potatoes of why I'm writing is I feel like I'm adrift. I know that I'm pretty lucky right now as far as life goes. I know that things were a hell of a lot worse in many ways a few years ago too. I feel like I have the flu, the kind where you're feverish and you're cold to your bones, so cold it feels like icy fire crawling around on your skin, but it's like 80 degrees outside and all your friends are playing out there but you don't even know or care because you're so delirious and exhausted.
I dunno. Hopefully things will turn around soon...
At any rate, the real meat and potatoes of why I'm writing is I feel like I'm adrift. I know that I'm pretty lucky right now as far as life goes. I know that things were a hell of a lot worse in many ways a few years ago too. I feel like I have the flu, the kind where you're feverish and you're cold to your bones, so cold it feels like icy fire crawling around on your skin, but it's like 80 degrees outside and all your friends are playing out there but you don't even know or care because you're so delirious and exhausted.
I dunno. Hopefully things will turn around soon...