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I dont know what to do with myself anymore.
Im workin 45 hours a week for practically nothing cause i soon find myself broke again.
i even thought about selling my car and buying a cheap and economical scooter or somethin, to avoid the outrageous and ridiculously high gas prices and car payments. im seriously considering it.
I hate living with my unsocial, over paranoid aunt
I rarely see my friends anymore, maybe twice a month if im lucky.
ive been trying to play music as much as possible and write some songs while juggling a band at the same time.
i dont have ANY time whatsoever to work on my portfolio, im hoping i can put together something half-assed and withstanding to get me in to a substantial school somewhere, even if its CSUN or some BS second or third choice non-art school.
in the mean time ill be stressin over GE classes at moorpark along with everything else. and its hard enough as it is.
the reason i try and do music and be a part of a band is cause its realy the only thing i get any enjoyment out of.
and im losing weight, as if i have any to lose.
i thought i had no motivation to lose but im starting to lose what little i had.
i feel more lost than i ever have in my life, and i know ive said it before, but i fear im coming to the point where i just dont give a flying fuck about anything anymore.
i have plans and goals and paths im working towards to better the situation, but shit keeps happening and nothing ever seems to work, which may explain why ive lost any sense of motivation.
i miss having a source of comfort.
thanks for your help mom and dad, much appreciated....
Im workin 45 hours a week for practically nothing cause i soon find myself broke again.
i even thought about selling my car and buying a cheap and economical scooter or somethin, to avoid the outrageous and ridiculously high gas prices and car payments. im seriously considering it.
I hate living with my unsocial, over paranoid aunt
I rarely see my friends anymore, maybe twice a month if im lucky.
ive been trying to play music as much as possible and write some songs while juggling a band at the same time.
i dont have ANY time whatsoever to work on my portfolio, im hoping i can put together something half-assed and withstanding to get me in to a substantial school somewhere, even if its CSUN or some BS second or third choice non-art school.
in the mean time ill be stressin over GE classes at moorpark along with everything else. and its hard enough as it is.
the reason i try and do music and be a part of a band is cause its realy the only thing i get any enjoyment out of.
and im losing weight, as if i have any to lose.
i thought i had no motivation to lose but im starting to lose what little i had.
i feel more lost than i ever have in my life, and i know ive said it before, but i fear im coming to the point where i just dont give a flying fuck about anything anymore.
i have plans and goals and paths im working towards to better the situation, but shit keeps happening and nothing ever seems to work, which may explain why ive lost any sense of motivation.
i miss having a source of comfort.
thanks for your help mom and dad, much appreciated....