When you get that foreboding feeling, sometimes its right...
Scariest day ever. We'll talk about last first.
Driving down Cascade Road with Kristen in the passenger seat and she's reading stuff in my note book. We joke and then there's a bit of a quiet. Squeeling tires. I was going the speed limit and saw this guy turning. I could not stop fast enough. The front end of my car plows under the bottom back of his causing him minimal damage. We turn on to Mont-Rue and I'm somehow still calm. I turn off my car and start shaking violently. Of course, the tears well up and I'm a blithering fool. He was really nice though and took us to his house before he called the police. I am trying so hard to stay calm and with Kristen's help I sort of could. I call Dad first because he's rational and I know that mom would scream and I didn't need that. Dad heads out. Mom heads out. Kristen calls her Mom and she got there first. She looked at the damage and then hugged me. I was so scared. I mean, I never thought that I could be so afraid. The policeman was really nice and I only got a ticket for failure to stop in a clear and ready zone or something. Kristen's Mom askes if I'm alright and many hugs. Mom comes next. She ignored both Kristen and her Mom. My mom doesn't ask if I'm alright or even touch me. She chews me out to the policeman. She askes no one if they are alright. Kristen and her Mom leave a few minutes before Dad arrives which was a bit after the policeman left. Dad hugs me and askes if I am alright.
$71 ticket, mom took my liscence, the repairs, just the parts, are over $350. It'll take all the cash I have on me right now to pay the ticket.
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Today started off as crap. Warning: Mentions of Female Menstrual Cycle
I got my period last night, late... I woke up at 3 or 3:30 am feeling physically ill. I took asprine and slept. I get to school with a huge feeling of foreboding. It was like my body was saying 'stay home' but I went. I collapse when I try to stand in Chem. Lunch, I have to print something. I go, I print, I go to get food. It's closed, bastards so I skip that meal. School is school and the whole day was foreboding... go figure... PMS is not that bad. I've never had PMS that bad especially after getting it. GSA yay! What I've waited for all week and the reason that I came to school. My juice is all over my lap. It looks like I peed. x.x I go clean up and come back. I move my stuff and it is everywhere. I sort of snap and go to the hall and cry like a damned idiot, again o.o; Then the accident happens. The clock said it took mere seconds. It's wrong. It took 2 hours in which I was paralyzed. All I could see was the shocked look on Kristen's face out of the corner of my eye for a split second before my world narrowed to the sound of crushing metal. I did seriously think I would die. Yet, I didn't care about me. I cared about my passenger and her parents. I cared about the car infront of me. Were there kids? If so, are they hurt? Why didn't I stop sooner? ... If I had swerved, we would have plowed into him sideways, seriously injuring myself if not killing me. I lost my job. I lost my liscence. There were no kids and no one was hurt. We're all a bit sore but alive. They should have had me on that Chocolate Milk commercial I was shaking so much. lol
I can recall the whole incident except the metal crunching up. I didn't see it. I think I blinked... It would have been kind of cool to see... ya know? lol I'm cracked. I am so fucked in the head right now. If it weren't for Kristen, I seriously think that I would have been worse off, mentally. I almost typed metally. lol. car. dead. o.o;
Dad turned on Cops when we got home. I saw cars and went to my room. I ate dinner so no worrying there. I wasn't hungry but I ate. o.O; I'm going to nap and calm down a bit more.
Driving down Cascade Road with Kristen in the passenger seat and she's reading stuff in my note book. We joke and then there's a bit of a quiet. Squeeling tires. I was going the speed limit and saw this guy turning. I could not stop fast enough. The front end of my car plows under the bottom back of his causing him minimal damage. We turn on to Mont-Rue and I'm somehow still calm. I turn off my car and start shaking violently. Of course, the tears well up and I'm a blithering fool. He was really nice though and took us to his house before he called the police. I am trying so hard to stay calm and with Kristen's help I sort of could. I call Dad first because he's rational and I know that mom would scream and I didn't need that. Dad heads out. Mom heads out. Kristen calls her Mom and she got there first. She looked at the damage and then hugged me. I was so scared. I mean, I never thought that I could be so afraid. The policeman was really nice and I only got a ticket for failure to stop in a clear and ready zone or something. Kristen's Mom askes if I'm alright and many hugs. Mom comes next. She ignored both Kristen and her Mom. My mom doesn't ask if I'm alright or even touch me. She chews me out to the policeman. She askes no one if they are alright. Kristen and her Mom leave a few minutes before Dad arrives which was a bit after the policeman left. Dad hugs me and askes if I am alright.
$71 ticket, mom took my liscence, the repairs, just the parts, are over $350. It'll take all the cash I have on me right now to pay the ticket.
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Today started off as crap. Warning: Mentions of Female Menstrual Cycle
I got my period last night, late... I woke up at 3 or 3:30 am feeling physically ill. I took asprine and slept. I get to school with a huge feeling of foreboding. It was like my body was saying 'stay home' but I went. I collapse when I try to stand in Chem. Lunch, I have to print something. I go, I print, I go to get food. It's closed, bastards so I skip that meal. School is school and the whole day was foreboding... go figure... PMS is not that bad. I've never had PMS that bad especially after getting it. GSA yay! What I've waited for all week and the reason that I came to school. My juice is all over my lap. It looks like I peed. x.x I go clean up and come back. I move my stuff and it is everywhere. I sort of snap and go to the hall and cry like a damned idiot, again o.o; Then the accident happens. The clock said it took mere seconds. It's wrong. It took 2 hours in which I was paralyzed. All I could see was the shocked look on Kristen's face out of the corner of my eye for a split second before my world narrowed to the sound of crushing metal. I did seriously think I would die. Yet, I didn't care about me. I cared about my passenger and her parents. I cared about the car infront of me. Were there kids? If so, are they hurt? Why didn't I stop sooner? ... If I had swerved, we would have plowed into him sideways, seriously injuring myself if not killing me. I lost my job. I lost my liscence. There were no kids and no one was hurt. We're all a bit sore but alive. They should have had me on that Chocolate Milk commercial I was shaking so much. lol
I can recall the whole incident except the metal crunching up. I didn't see it. I think I blinked... It would have been kind of cool to see... ya know? lol I'm cracked. I am so fucked in the head right now. If it weren't for Kristen, I seriously think that I would have been worse off, mentally. I almost typed metally. lol. car. dead. o.o;
Dad turned on Cops when we got home. I saw cars and went to my room. I ate dinner so no worrying there. I wasn't hungry but I ate. o.O; I'm going to nap and calm down a bit more.