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As the seasons change, so do my emotions. I have no idea why, but for some reason my emotions depend a lot on the weather, and the sun. I hate the heat, and the sun is always too bright, but my spirits are always a lil higher when there is sun. Im not sure why. People say its that vitamin the sun rays give off, i suppose that could be true. lol who knows.
Now. Back to the day.
Woke up, went to lunch with my mom and sister. It was nice, i mean me and my mom dont always see eye to eye..in fact, she doesnt fully understand 90% of what im saying or trying to say, but thats just our difference, anyways it was nice. I get frustrated with my mom sometimes though, i feel really bad about it, but she has a lot of the personality types that i tend to stay away from in the company i keep. But I love her with all my heart, and when you love someone, you try to look past thier flaws. And my sister...is only 8. Enough said. lol I love that lil girl more than i can express. But shes still a pain in the butt. haha though i wouldnt have it any other way.
Than we all came home and watched some movies.
It was a nice day. Certainly rather restfull, a lil dull at times, but it was nice just to stay at home and relax.
Though a restfull day usually gives me much to much time to think. Its not always a bad thing, but there are times i wish i could just turn off my mind. Ive grown to realize i have a very sick view of the world. Its sick only because its so rational, so realistic, it leaves no room for fairytales. I know how things work here, i know how things will work for me. And i accept it. I just wish that others would accept it as well. It would make it so much eaiser for me to stop getting glipses of false hopes. I want to have hope. I really do, but its very hard in a hopeless world. Anyone with any sense would tell you the same.
Anyways, tomorrow ashley comes home. THANK GOD!
She is like, my secret savior. Her easy temper and unburrdened mind is always a nice change of pace from..other close friends. I would hate to name a name, but boy do they tire me out. Love them, but It would be nice if they would think of someone other than themselves for once. Its getting REALLY old REALLY fast.
Anywasy, YAY ASHELY! :]
She is such a good friend. Im lucky to have someone like her in my life :]
<3
Good night, and may tomorrow bring pleastan unexpected surprises :]
Now. Back to the day.
Woke up, went to lunch with my mom and sister. It was nice, i mean me and my mom dont always see eye to eye..in fact, she doesnt fully understand 90% of what im saying or trying to say, but thats just our difference, anyways it was nice. I get frustrated with my mom sometimes though, i feel really bad about it, but she has a lot of the personality types that i tend to stay away from in the company i keep. But I love her with all my heart, and when you love someone, you try to look past thier flaws. And my sister...is only 8. Enough said. lol I love that lil girl more than i can express. But shes still a pain in the butt. haha though i wouldnt have it any other way.
Than we all came home and watched some movies.
It was a nice day. Certainly rather restfull, a lil dull at times, but it was nice just to stay at home and relax.
Though a restfull day usually gives me much to much time to think. Its not always a bad thing, but there are times i wish i could just turn off my mind. Ive grown to realize i have a very sick view of the world. Its sick only because its so rational, so realistic, it leaves no room for fairytales. I know how things work here, i know how things will work for me. And i accept it. I just wish that others would accept it as well. It would make it so much eaiser for me to stop getting glipses of false hopes. I want to have hope. I really do, but its very hard in a hopeless world. Anyone with any sense would tell you the same.
Anyways, tomorrow ashley comes home. THANK GOD!
She is like, my secret savior. Her easy temper and unburrdened mind is always a nice change of pace from..other close friends. I would hate to name a name, but boy do they tire me out. Love them, but It would be nice if they would think of someone other than themselves for once. Its getting REALLY old REALLY fast.
Anywasy, YAY ASHELY! :]
She is such a good friend. Im lucky to have someone like her in my life :]
<3
Good night, and may tomorrow bring pleastan unexpected surprises :]