Aug 28, 2003 20:39
Haha. I laugh a lot. I dunno why. I think it lightens whatever I am talking about to some extent. Either way I don't blame you if you don't read this. I am just gonna talk about stupid teeanger problems I've been having.
This one just happened recently and I already typed it in a forum so I just copied and pasted it because I am a lazy bastard:
Today me and my friend needed a ride home from school. So I see the girl I have a crush on and I ask her. So I am pretty stoked. We get to her car and he pushes me out of the way and gets in the front seat. What a dick. So I had to sit in the back and watch him flirt with her the whole way home . I hate him. He does this kind of shit all the time. He has no regards for me. He will try to hook up with any girl no matter whose feelings he hurts. Blah I guess that sounds stupid, but I am just sick of it and today it really pissed me off.
Then before this at the beginning of summer another friend of mine started going out with this girl I really liked. That was horrible because I hadn't liked any girl as much as her before :(. Anyway that shit happens to me all the time. I guess I am getting used to it?
I am back in school. I didn't post about my first day because well it was a first day. Woo hoo. Nothing exciting happened. I like my classes except for psychology. That's because the teacher is boring. I have already fallen asleep in the class 3 or 4 times. I think I am going to drop that class so I can get out at lunch at noon everyday :D.
Well now for the deep and boring stuff: I had a long convo with someone about what was goin on in our lives and how we're both depressed. Basically it's just that I feel alone. I have no clue why :(. I have friends, I see them everyday, I hang out with them, but I ultimately feel alone. I don't have any friends I can tell my problems or feelings too. I have tried in the past, but number one answer for the response I get survey saaaaays! "oh..." Currently I am in a state of nothingness. I don't even know what to write anymore so I think I will stop here.