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i never thought i'd get busy enough to where i couldn't update this. but honestly, thats where i am. i'm sick from school today with what is either an ear infection or something very near to it. things have kind of gone downward lately. i'm back to the way i was. it was the quickest backslide i think i've ever experienced. falyn's gone. i'm hearing from her from time to time, and she's gotten my mail, which i'm so excited about. i miss her more than anything, and i wish she was here to help me through this period, but i love her to much to deny her the support she needs right now. baby micheal is growing so fast. he's six weeks old and has nearly grown out of his newborn clothing already. he's so cute, i love him to death. the girls are getting big, too. kaylee has begun making up nicknames for me, because she has a teacher at her daycare named nicole, so she has trouble differenciating. its cute. she's the only person i would let call me a nickname. schools been getting harder for me. i'm not sure if its lack of motivation or.. i don't know. i'm working it out but i'm not really doing a very good job. things with my friends are less than ideal. i wouldn't even consider some of them my friends anymore. i can't wrap my mind around some of them. i dont know why. and my best friends? well, they're more distant every day. but, so am i. lskjflsdjflsa i want falyn. i want it to be summer. i want to go to canada with tammy. i want to be ok. but what i want and what i need are two different things entirely. and right now, i need to go to the doctor.