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A lot of things have been taken from me in my lifetime.
My father, due to mental illness. My homes because of money. My friends because of location. My friends due to marriage and life and that people grow apart very steadily until one day you haven't talked to them for five years. My sense of family, security. My physical items during Mom's fits of rage. My happiness, because of my own mental illness. My privacy and sense of ownership. Eventually, my mom, because of her health.
So having an achievement like having completed my time in the military is something that nobody can take away. It's why I feel like such a failure, and why I want to go back. Finishing college was an accomplishment no one else can claim or take away from me. I need to finish my four years for my sake.
I'm not ready to give up.
My father, due to mental illness. My homes because of money. My friends because of location. My friends due to marriage and life and that people grow apart very steadily until one day you haven't talked to them for five years. My sense of family, security. My physical items during Mom's fits of rage. My happiness, because of my own mental illness. My privacy and sense of ownership. Eventually, my mom, because of her health.
So having an achievement like having completed my time in the military is something that nobody can take away. It's why I feel like such a failure, and why I want to go back. Finishing college was an accomplishment no one else can claim or take away from me. I need to finish my four years for my sake.
I'm not ready to give up.