83. my best friend
this is my best friend for this year :D
although we are living in different blocks and having long-distance friendship, I will still remember that you are my best friend for 2010! HAHA. and although u only buy koi for angel and never buy koi for me, i still forgive you cause i will think positively that you are supporting me in my diet plan. lastly, although you are pissed with me which makes me scared at times i know you still will support me (i think la) :D
hello bestfriend we dont have a photo taken together so no choice make do that im that microwave there :D
please come visit me on time and not make tauhuey's rot again (which smells okay but doesn't look ok and i know you have the tempted look to STILL eat it. HAHA) :D
this was my bestfriend in 2009. but since now she is having a long-distance friendship from me from ntu/bishan. it didn't really work out and i had to find another. HAHA =p but somehow when she appears in school i still feel very happy. i placed this photo smaller than the above one cause i dont want my present bestfriend to be jealous :D
hahahahaha.
okay, haven really been blogging proper for a long time. was always reading other ppl's blog and had no motivation till i came across the one below and decided, hm, maybe these can inspire me to blog proper! so here i am, blogging about MY best friend and a small little portion of my ex best friend. HAHA :D
anyway i think it isn't very easy for me to get a "BEST FRIEND" thing because i dont think i can get along well with many people. firstly i don't like to talk much to people that i don't know because it is just simply weird to go up and go "hey how are you!" to a stranger which i have never plucked up THAT kind of courage to do so.
sometimes i have this feeling that ppl say "i miss you" and all these kind of stuffs, i would be like, "if you miss me why dont you come and find me?" hahahaha. ya. then i will feel like she actually doesn't care and doesn't really mean what she say. am i weird or what! then sometimes i am expressive in terms of my facial expressions i guess, when im tired i will give the sian face, when im sad i will give the sad face, and lastly when im pissed i will definitely give off the pissed face.
i guess this can be very obvious to my roomie who always ask me "am i okay" whenever im feeling one of those feelings. but they are still containable unless ppl are smoking IN TH, suffocating me and trying to make me die early which the i will VENT out my anger and just shout in my room to ask that stupid ass to stopped smoking. it seemed to have work cause i haven smelled it on friday(but that may be due to the fact that he went out also, i have no idea).
and literally i just don't know when's the right time to make the effort to really ask how are you and stuffs. i just do them randomly and hope that she reciprocates at times because i want her to know that she is indeed important to me. then i think about distance between friendship and i get all so down because all my bbgt-ians are far away from me and i haven seen them in a LONG LONG time which makes me miss the warm feeling of being in a group (if you get what i mean)
then sometimes i just don't know how the other person is feeling and whether am i important to her or am i not D: this sucks even more because sometimes you think she is THAT best friend but in the end she isn't. i think i've got used to these feelings that i just stopped trying to be anyone's best friend. okay, actually i dont think i have any best friend, just on the surface i guess. hahahahaha. 我真的不知道！
you know ppl tend to say distance dont matter? well, it does. see what happened between pri school bestfriends to secondary school bestfriends? and now jc friends whom i rarely ever talk to anymore nor see anymore? this is partly because no one cares right?
hahaha. sudden outpour of thoughts. maybe due to the fact that i have TWO lab reports due this friday!! D: want to die :(
SAD! going back to study :D byeeeeeeeeeee!