It's been how long?
Wow, I mean...I dont even know where to begin. It's been how long since I last wrote on here? Well, dose it even matter? Does anyone really care about me or what's going on in my life. I mean really? If they did, why not just call me and find out! That's how you know who your true friends are. I know that I sound like a hypocrite right now and you know what, I am. I say these things and yet I dont do them myself. There are a few people out their in computer world that, yes, I miss the hell out of. I think you know who you are........most of you have all the popular computer crazes i.e, facebook, live-journal and myspace. Why has this become the way we communicate? Really... a freakin computer? Nothing but keys and a screen that fucks up all the time.
For some time now...oh since about JULY to be exact, I have been out of the loop. With theatre,"friends", school, oh life itself. Most of you know what happened back in july(if not, look at my last post....well, somtime ago, the real crazy one!!!)That was an earth shattering day in my life;changed me forever. Some of you know who I am now and some of you don't. That's ok. Obviously you have more important people in your life than me.... who am I to blame but myself. I have realized things about me that I never had before. I have missed out on great friendships with people i'm sure, I know this....and many of you don't know why and get upset... well the thing is, I don't trust people. They have to earn it. It's very hard for me to open up to someone I know I can't trust. There are people that I have opened up to and have taken everything from me. That hurts. It hurts more than anything. Even stubbing your toe!
Basically, what I wanted to get out of all this is that I MISS THE HELL OUT OF YOU GUYS!!!!!! MUAH!!!!!!!!
For some time now...oh since about JULY to be exact, I have been out of the loop. With theatre,"friends", school, oh life itself. Most of you know what happened back in july(if not, look at my last post....well, somtime ago, the real crazy one!!!)That was an earth shattering day in my life;changed me forever. Some of you know who I am now and some of you don't. That's ok. Obviously you have more important people in your life than me.... who am I to blame but myself. I have realized things about me that I never had before. I have missed out on great friendships with people i'm sure, I know this....and many of you don't know why and get upset... well the thing is, I don't trust people. They have to earn it. It's very hard for me to open up to someone I know I can't trust. There are people that I have opened up to and have taken everything from me. That hurts. It hurts more than anything. Even stubbing your toe!
Basically, what I wanted to get out of all this is that I MISS THE HELL OUT OF YOU GUYS!!!!!! MUAH!!!!!!!!